It's been so hard. I will not lie

Well today is another day of the pre-op diet. It is hard, and it's not because I am hungry, it's because when I feel a certain emotion I cannot just go and grab soemthing to put in my mouth. Going without food for the last two days has really opened my eyes to what I do when I am lonely,bored,mad,sad,happy. I go to the fridge and get whatever I want, not because I am hungry or because I need it but because it makes me feel better. I haven't really been hungry the last few days. The shakes keep you rather full. BUT that being said  the shakes don't take care of whats going on in your head or your heart. Yesterday there were many times I just wanted to eat to get it over with. However, I didn't eat at one point I cried and I cried hard because I am no longer going to be able to heal myself with food. I now need to think of other ways to channel those emotions. I need a healthy way to channel those emotions so here I am telling y'all what I am going through. Hopefully, this will help others. When you have that emotional hunger, find something to do with it. For me it will be journaling and walking and after walking a niiiice looong bath. Will this be the answer for everytime? probably not. But I myself made the choice to have this surgery, and I knew it wasn't going to be wine and roses so, I have to find other ways to spend my time. I have spent enough time being a slave to my prisoner. Food will no longer inprison me, for this is my choice. Food will no longer control my life or my actions. I am the one who got myself here today by the choices I made especially when I started to let food make my choices for me. So, now it is up to me and with the help of Jesus as my savior he will help me to make better choices. Yesterday was the first day of really beginning to be accountable for my choices. The choices I made lead me to where I am today but for the grace of God has helped me see that I now have other choices.  Thanks for listening to me ramble and I love y'all so much I have needed this board  Hugs

I know it's hard. Trust me! I found the liquid protein diet to go fast because I just wanted to get to the surgery itself. However I have gone through the emotions and feelings you are going through since the surgery. The first couple weeks I really wasn't that hungry but once I was back in the real world and going through the daily routines then I faced the fact that I ate for any reason and every reason. I even realized ate to smoke. I quit smoking after my surgery but I don't even crave that, I still missed the food. Now that I am on regular foods though it is much better! I think realizing it and facing the emotions is one of the hardest things but once you start seeing the weight drop off the happiness cancels out some of those emotions and you start to feel a lot better! Good luck on your upcoming surgery! Please feel free to contact me anytime!

**hugs** I am praying for ya....and for me too b/c I will be there myself in just a couple of days.  But we CAN do this....and the reason is, is b/c we're going to be SO healthy and absolutely more gorgeous than we already are :-) I'm here for ya, and I'm back from vacation so if you need to talk you know where I am :-)

Girl,   You can do it!   Just take one day at a time!   It is very hard, but you can do it.  Time is going fast and before u know it you will be having surgery?  Have you been eating sugar free popsicles?  I lived on those when I had to be on liquid diet.  God bless you!  Colette

Hang in there, girl!. I am now 7 months out, and am learning it is truly the excess weight that kept me from living. My knees and back do not go out on me or hurt like they used to. I can go up and down stairs. I can walk, ride a bike, breathe - live like a normal looking human being, and I still could lose 40 lbs. But I have lost 83 - from before and since the surgery. My body looks different, but I am still much the same inside. Some of my food tastes have changed which is good. Yours will too. Try to keep busy and not think of the type of restrictions you are on now. Some doctorts do not require a pre-op diet. Having to do that just tests your endurance and makes it easier for the surgeon in the operating room. GOOD LUCK - soon it will be behind you! Leanie