sick of life long diet!

Do you ever get tired of eating right all the dang time?  I want to eat cake, chips, chocolate, and eat a whole plate of food!  I want to drink margaritas until my heart is content.  Do you ever just get sick of following all the rules of food that are placed on us?  I know I have to follow these rules to stay thinner and healthy, and we have limits we go by so we don't dump, or feel ill.  But there are times I wish I could eat like I used to and still be thin, or at least not get sick every once in awhile.  I miss milk, chocolate, fried foods, nice big, warm bread,  potatoes....I guess you get the point.  To be honest I have been bad since after my PS.  I am 3 years out from GB, and I just get tired of always watching what I eat.  Even when I am "bad"  I have to be careful so I don't get sick.  Am I alone?  I want to drink a big fat caramel coffee with whip cream on top!  Please excuse me...I am having a melt down!  I want the benefits of being thin and healthy, but eat what I want.  I somehow don't think there is such a thing, huh? 

Monique you probably arent alone at all. but you know and i know that there is no such thing as having our cake and eating it too. Just remember that nothing really taste as good as being thin and healthy feels. You have spent a lot of money getting yourself into shape and having the p.s. and you really look good so why would you want to ruin it.  There are some things that you can have in the place of some of those things. just make sure they are sugar free and only do them in moderation. My meltdowns are breads , hot homemade rolls that the butter just runs off of and are so melt in your mouth good. but -----i tried one at a resturant the other day and it only took two bites of it and then i had no room for my meal so was it worth it? Heck yeah i took my meal home and ate it later but was it worth it if i do it daily all the time? NO. I love how im feeling and looking and i dont ever want to go back to where i was.  And i know you dont either. Hope to see you at the COF meeting this month. Sounds like you need some reinforcements. lol. Love Jan

Monique, I think you are normal, but I don't want to go there.  I want to be abnormal and thin and healthy and I think you do too.  Of course it would be wonderful to eat everything we want AND be thin but that ain't gonna happen so we have to make the best of the deal we have.  Go ahead and melt down but, as Jan said, you have had surgery, had PS and you don't want to mess that up for food.  I don't have answers for you, just know that I love you and will be here if there is anything I can do or say to lift you up.  Keep on keepin' on.  You have two beautiful kids and a guy who loves you and you want to be healthy and happy for them.   Hugs, Lana

Monique!!! Can a hear an AMEN SISTA!!!!!!!!!!!?????? LOL

You know I think this is what comes with being 3yrs out and more......because we CAN eat more and less things BOTHER us and we KNOW we are begin BAD when we go there.....but let me tell you that I will NEVER forget how bad I felt with all the extra weight and YES beign THINNER will ALWAYS feel better than that EVEN IF I can't gorge and binge when I feel the need/want to do so. I find ways to satisfy that feeling even now as certain "good" foods will even do that for me and I get sick of them real quick.....for instance my new fmaily chef, (my 13 yr old daughter) made my favorite chocolate pie.....sugar-free graham cracker crust, dreamwhip box mix and calorie countdown choc milk to follow the pie recipe on the dream-whip box and that stuff is HEAVENLY to me but I can not eat too much or I feel icky and yet SATISFIED in the saem way a quart of Ben and Jerry's ice-cream would do me before RNY.  And the drinks.....I DO still enjoy my drinks and going out.....I've learned though that I need to stick to ONE type of drink rather than mixing it up!!!! No more nights of jell-o shots, apple martinis, amaretto sours, and Hypnotic martinis all in one night!!!! That was NOT fun 2 hours LATER!!!! Please folks, learn from my mistake!! Maybe a seasoned drinker would have known this was a bad idea without RNY but I did not! My point is we CAN still enjoy a couple (or more) drinks on occassion if we choose to. What you are going through IS normal and IS something that we'll probably ALWAYS struggle with form time to time post-op......EATING has always been a HUGE part of who we are and I for one know that I will always have food issues but I can deal with them better as a thinner, healthier person......if I get pissed now and then cause I feel deprived, I'm entitiled to that momentary decent but if it's more than momentary then maybe counseling is a good idea to learn to DEAL.  Chin up girlfriend!!!!! HUGS!!!!! Tami