Desparately need prayers, advice, happy thoughts, hugs...anything!

We'll just be Baker's Butterflys up here in Mo....:-D Actually, I don't have a drain....I was lucky enough to not need one....so that's definitely something I am VERY thankful for.....I didn't have that extra burden to worry about... What places did you use your card?  I still haven't decided if I'm going to use mine....I don't think I am....I think I'm just gonna order what I want and have leftovers!  We'll see though.... *hugs*  Thanks for everything and glad you are doing so well!!  How's your weight loss going?  Good? That vitamin Dr. B gave us prescription is SO nasty.....it made me dry heave for 30 mins every night....so I called and he said I could just take 2 chewable flinestones....which are cheaper anyways!  ha ha  I go see him next week for my one month postop visit....can't believe it's almost been a month!!

Rianne believe me it gets better, I am 7 mos out and I am really getting lined out, I watched my scales and that was not good, because it will come of, I worried I was eating to little, then I worried i was not eating enough...now when I go to eat I order me 6 broiled shrimp and a veggy it dont get no better that than...someone on the forum told me to relax and enjoy the ride, I did that and now it is better...but of coarse if it dont get better you neeed to see your Dr.....love ya...vesta

Thanks so much....I really appreciate it.  I'm trying to just chill out and relax...but patience is really not one of my strong suits ;-) Yum....I love shrimp......maybe this weekend I'll make my DF take me out to eat for some shrimp :-) *hugs*  Thanks again

Rianne, You took the words right out of my mouth.  I cant belive it!!  I have been feeling the exact same way.  How stupid of me not to come here and post like you did.  I keep thinking that something is wrong with me.  (Okay lots are wrong with me, lol!)  I can not tell you exactly how great this post made me feel!  Sorry, sorry, sorry I would never want ANYONE to feel bad or hurt.  I kept thinking, "I must me so addicted to food, no one else misses food, no one else would cry about not having food.   What the hell???  They didnt do my surgery right, I have made my pouchie bigger.  I AM STARVING!!!  I am not getting full!!  I am losing my mind!!  Okay, I am getting a grip on myself here, sorry.  (I havent typed that fast in months, lol!)  I love you guys so much here.  I dont know what we would do without each others support, answers and questions.  I know we have all said it or thought it, when something is making us upset or sad we should come here!  We need to share everything that we are going thru.  You just never know when someone else is going thru what you are going thru!  We need each other even when we dont think we can help someone because we are feeling so down, Rianne thank you so much for sharing your feelings.  I really thought I was losing my mind sweetie.  I am here for you and am having the same feeling, so I am sending you my email.  I havent been here much either.  I know I have had some complications but really I just havent felt like posting I have been so down about everything lately.  Thank the Lord above he gave you the strength to come here and post, or I would still be crying at every friggin Dairy Queen Turtle ice cream chocolate, YUM YUM, I swear I had a dream the other night one was chasing me with a bbq bacon, ranch chicken burger right behind the ice cream!  I just wanted to tell you thank you Rianne.

By the way thanks to you Erin, Chelle, Julia, and Nuttie also.  I learned something from everyone, it is so great to have such wonderful support!!

Julia Thank you now I got it!  I could not figure out what full was.  I have only gotten to that point 2 times where I felt what you are describing and I thought I had eaten too much and was doing my pouchie harm.  No wonder I  feel like eating every two hours, guess part of the problem is I maynot eat enough to get full. Love and (((((((((HUGS))))))))) SUSAN

*hugs* Thank you so much....it's definitely a relief when you find out that you're not crazy (well, not about this anyways) and that you're not alone..... I don't feel hunger...and I don't really WANT to eat any of those things....but it's the fact that I couldn't eat them even if I wanted to that's getting me down at the moment.  I also don't feel fullness....but considering that I'm measuring out my portions 1-2 tablespoons per meal I don't really think I'll be overeating anytime soon.... I'm just taking it a day at a time and seeing how things go from there....we'll work on it together :-) *hugs*  Thanks so much and I'm glad to find that it's not just me.....hope this day is going much much better for ya.....keep in touch!

Rianne and friends, You are normal!!  I love all of you and want you to know it does get better and better.  You absolutely will be able to eat some of everything you're missing right now.  You just won't want or be able to eat much of anything.  Some of us dump, some don't.  Some wish we did and some wish we didn't.  I am very restrictive on myself and others are not.  Doesn't make me or anyone else wrong unless we let our heads get in the way of our minds and eat too much of the wrong things and defeat the purpose of the surgery.  I know you guys won't do that.  Once you get a little past this first stage you'll start loving how you look and feel and that will overtake the mourning for favorite old foods.  Clothes have replaced food in my affections!!!   I'll confess my latest insanity.  I bought a Hershey Extra Dark Chocolate Cacao Reserve bar at Target and have carried it in my purse for over a week.  The whole bar is only 190 calories and the sugars are 11 grams but the point is I look at it and even touch it but I haven't eaten it.  That's not to say I won't, it's just to say I haven't needed to yet.  Somehow having it available and knowing I could eat it has kept me feeling in control.  How sick is that????  I am a control freak I know. Rianne, if you keep feeling depressed, ask your PCP about an antidepressant.  I do think that if you start obsessing about food maybe you need to go for a walk or read or something.  I have found that many times when I think I'm hungry I'm just thirsty and if I drink something it goes away.  Try Tropicana Sugar Free canned Orangeade (Walmart on Campbell).  I drink lots every day and it still tastes good to me.  I was a Classic Coke girl so this is a total switch but I love it. Don't worry too much about liquids if you are getting 40 oz down.  You'll get there.  I don't follow the 30 minutes before - more like 10-15 but I do try to do the 30 afterward so I don't wash the food out of my pouch.  Don't feel bad about how little you can eat.  Think like a thin person and be proud of what a tiny amount you can get by on.  I'm not preaching - yes I am but you know I love you and care about you and want you to feel better.  You are my little cutie pie. Hugs and love, Lana

*hugs*  You always make me feel better.....not only through your words, but when I see your picture I am ALWAYS encouraged to keep trying so that I can have amazing results such as yours!! I just wish there were a few more hrs in the day so I could eat all the protein I need....and drink all the liquids I need......but there aren't so I need to figure things out....I've done some shakes, but it takes me like an hr and a half to drink an 8 oz shake....*sigh* So far, I haven't dumped on anything....there's been a few things that haven't made the pouchie feel good but didn't dump.  I'm still trying to decide if that's good or bad!! I hope to see you at the next COF meeting...I'll be late but I will be there......**hugs**  Thanks so much for everything....you rock!

You girls are the greatest!  I think we all go through similar things but at different degrees.  We just need to come here even when we don't feel like it that way we can get the support we need. I haven't been arond much either. Living with my parents right now defently makes me be stronger on the outside.   I am using the protien bullets to help get my protien in. Still lacking some on fluids though but it's gettin easyer. It get better! I love you all!! Rianne and Susan- are you going to Branson for the reunion?

I'm gonna do my best to go for the day for the reunion....but just depends on how my nursing school load is since it's my first semester....and IF I get a job anytime in the near future if I have to work...I've been out of work for so long now that if I can work I'm gonna..... *hugs*  I thought ya'll got a house??? We're finally getting to sign the papers tomorrow and get the keys on our house.....thankfully....we had almost decided to start looking for a new place...ugh!!  That woulda stunk..... What protein bullets do you use?  like the 3 oz ones?  I think I'm gonna find them b/c a 1.5 oz shooter twice a day is better than worrying myself sick all the time with not getting enough protein..... I've done some shakes....but b/c they are so thick it takes me like 90 mins to drink 8 oz of shake...UGH!! fluids....yeah, I'm working on it..... *hugs*  Are you going to the reunion??? love ya

Hi Everyone,  I am 7 days post op RNY.  Going to Columbia tomorrow for my post op visit to get my drain out and staples removed.  Been teary and finding it hard to get my fluids in the last 2 days then found out that it was normal to go thru this and it can last 2-3 weeks.   I will be off work another 2 weeks and really want to go to Springfield to see grandkids so bad but don't think I can tolerate the 5 hour drive. Take care!  Sandy