The memory fades

One of my biggest motivators for getting WLS then striving to kick butt afterwards was my thoughts of how awful my life had become as my weight continued to go up and up. Those thoughts carried me through the last 2 and a half years as I lost 275 pounds and completely changed by lifestyle.  Unfortunately, those personal memories are fading and I find myself struggling not to slip back into the bad eating habits which got me into the "huge" mess in the first place. I think most of us "old timers" can relate to how difficult maintenance can oftentimes be.  How do I keep those "former fat-self" memories fresh in my mind?  I come to the locker room and read about the seemingly endless number of FARTS which occur daily. What an inspiration it is to me to read about all your accomplishments (and struggles) as you find out how great life can be as the pounds drip off. It's amazing to me how similar our WLS journey's are and to a T, I don't recall anyone here ever regretting having WLS. Initially after WLS maybe, but not after the big FARTS start happening.   So, thanks to you all for the daily dose of inspiration and keep posting. I think sometimes we don't realize how important our posts are (except for Baja's ) to others here on the board, whether they be pre-ops, newbies or old-timers like myself.  My best, Boner  

On February 12, 2008 at 8:43 AM Pacific Time, Cards Fan wrote: Hey Boner! BITE ME!!!  Now how's that for inspiration and motivation!!!  CF Expected from you, CF!!  I realize you are still bitter about the Rockies romp through the NL and the corresponding demise of your beloved Cards. Spring training starts in 3 weeks so those "memories" will fade for you I'm sure. Hope all is well, Boner

But one thing to remember - at least my Redbirds took the series in 2006.  But hey it's the least they could do when they dropped the series in 4 straight in 2004...wow was that painful!!  And I'll let you know I was rooting for the Rockheads all the way through the playoffs and into the series.

So ya think history wil repeat itself and the RockHeads will win it all next year, CF? Beers on me if it happens!!   Boner

Damnit Old Timer,  I was hoping you were gonna tell us that after two and half years, the habits formed post-op are so ingrained that you never even get close to being tempted to go back to the old way of doing things again.   Hell, I'm always on the lookout for something free and easy.  Seriously though, I'm getting a small dose of what you are talking about already. I put on a shirt that I haven't worn since '06, maybe even '05, and the next thing you know that little ***** that lives inside my head and is always talking **** to me starts making a case for skipping my walk that day or having a slice of that Di'Giorno my daughter just cooked up instead of the healthy meal I already had planned. I'm probably like you and everybody else on here in that I could always lose weight, it was the maintenance of the loss that kicked my ass. My approach this time is going to be that there are certain lines I'll never go back across. Much like a recovering alcoholic and that bottle of Crown he keeps in the cabinet just so that he has to be accountable 24/7 and doesn't get snuck up on. I don't know what all I'm gonna put on the other side of that line other than Coke, but there are simply going to have to be some old favorites that I never go back to. I already know that.  Keep fighting the good fight. I never thought that me bragging about being able to wipe my own ass would have a therapeutic effect on a skinny guy like you.

Hey JFish, I just read your excellent blog and it brought back some memories for me as well. In particular:  "They weighed and measured me that day and I was 6'3" and 456 lbs. I hadn't had a true weight in 3-4 year as my Dr.s office scale only goes to 350, but I was shocked that I weighed that much. I thought I would be somewhere around 400. I guess one thing that contributes to our obesity though is the ability to be delusional about our appearance." When I had my initial consultation, I weighed 479 pounds and measured in at 6'4" and change. So I imagine our BMIs were pretty comparable. I never ever imagined I weighed over 400 pounds, 350 maybe but 479 pounds? Are you kidding me? I even went as far as to think "conspiracy" on the part of the surgeon in order to drum up more business. How sick is that? Back to ya on "fighting the good fight" as you are doing great and will be down to your goal weight of 210 before you know it.  Boner 

"I never thought that me bragging about being able to wipe my own ass would have a therapeutic effect on a skinny guy like you." That's just frickin' hilarious right there!

Alright, I surrender, I give up........for the life of me I can not figure out what the acronym FART stands for.  I'm pretty sure I have the concept but, as a newbie I'm going to take my lumps and plead ignorance... Please, what is a FART? In the philosophical sense.....

The women use WOW moments for their WLS accomplishments so back in 2006, the men came up with FART as an acronym for our WLS accomplishments. FART stands for, others correct me if I'm wrong, Fantastic Accomplishment, Remarkable, Tremendous.  So, if you lose 100 pounds or so, FART. Move from an XXXXL to XXXL, FART. Don't have to use an extender seat belt, FART. You get the drift.  FART on, brother. Boner