Well, today I am 4 years out of surgery!!!
Although I am really not too happy with myself for back tracking once again!!! (see back to basics post)... I got to thinking this morning of where I am compared to 4 years ago.
I started my journey at 352 lbs. I had trouble sleeping because it was difficult to breathe. I had NO energy at all. My knees were always in pain... I was basically living on Motrin. I don't think I ever went a day that my back didn't hurt. Walking the length of the mall required several stops to rest.. sitting on a bench. I wasn't ill.. no major sickness or anything, but I felt as though I wouldn't live much longer.
As of Dec 2006 (when I lost my son) I was down to 188 lbs. I was escatic. Then my life went to he**. I managed to get back up to 247, then back down to 229 (a few months ago) Now... I'm back up to 244.4.
The amazing thing is........... even though I weigh 244.4, I am so amazed at how far I have come. No, I'm not at my goal weight, and may never be, but life is soooo very much easier now! I walk... play with my grandchildren, enjoy time with my husband... sleep... shop.. ride rides, sit in the seat at the theater... and so may more things that weren't possible before.
Yesterday, I was asked if I would still have the surgery... seeing as I have put some of the weight back on.... my answer was a resounding "YES!, ABSOLUTELY!!" I am very thankful to have been given the chance to enjoy life again and have realized that if I never reach goal, that's ok. I really do want to get below 200 and stay there, but that is really my only goal at this point.
Thank GOD and my surgeon for giving me back a quality of life that didn't exist before!!!!
Blanche Jackson 352/314/258.6/180 
