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I am writing this as a morbidly obese woman who is fighting for her life in a battle to lose weight. I struggle every single day with my weight. I have been more embarrassed by things that deal with my weight than any other thing I could ever experience. A couple weeks ago I went to the lake with my family. It was a memorial day party so there was a ton of people there. Well I went through the buffet line and piled my plate up. Then I followed my family to the picnic table. I went to sit down and couldn't fit! I thought, well maybe if I put my leg over the seat and sat down. Well my leg got stuck. I started to cry. I don't mean tear up, I mean I squalled! This really nice lady was in line next to where we were and she consoled me. She was like “Priscilla, it's okay. Don't you feel ashamed. You are beautiful. And I sat down at my uncles camper and cried. Soon, my Mom and aunt Julie came over to where I was and ate with me. I didn't eat hardly anything.... well not until I got back to my Granny's who I was staying with for a visit. I ate a soup, popcorn, a piece of cake and a granola bar. I had absolutely given up.
I have had many embarrassing moments. I am currently sitting in a chair at this computer that I have broken about three of the wheels on. They have a screw sticking out of each wheel and I constantly have to get up, get on the floor (which is a task in itself) and stick the screw back in the wheel.
My Dad got me and my nephews (ages 12 and 9) a new above ground pool for our back yard. Well, they told me before putting it up that it has a 200 pound weight limit. I thought “Oh joy." So After being extremely excited about swimming in it, I was once again heart broken.
When we went on our cruise last month I went to the dinners with my family. The chairs had arms on them and I couldn't fit. But there happened to be one at the other end of the table. I had to pick the chair up and swap it for the other one in front of everyone. SO EMBARASSING!
I pray to God that my insurance will cover my surgery. I have had too many heartaches, too many tears have fallen, and too much self hatred. I want to love myself again. I want to feel pretty in this body of mine. After I have surgery, which is depending on my income approval, I will be able to live again.
I am 29, 362 lbs, and I have sleep apnea and acid reflux. Its so horribly humiliating. God help me. That's all I can say.....God help me.
Hi, my name is Joyce.
I just read your message on Oh line. Don't give up. I am sure your insurance will cover you to have the surgery. You are so young and you will have your whole life to enjoy the New You!. I just had the rny surgery on April 13, 2011 and I am 62 years old. I have been over weight all my life and I only wish I could have done it at your age. But I have no regrets and am doing good( down 43 pounds so far) My daughter had it at 38 and lost 135 pounds and she was my insperation to do this surgery. I don't know your name , but I wish you the best of luck and I pray that you will get approved soon and will be starting your new journey! Joyce
I started out at 367 lbs and even after over 8 years remember the pain well. Do know there is hope and hang in there... Keep reading and learn as much as you can. Surgery is a tool, not a miracle, and there are risks involved. It also doesn't guarantee that you will make it to goal or maintain your goal weight. BUT, it IS a tool and if used well, it can truly help change your life...
I haven't been here in the forums for a LONG time, but when I had my surgery, OH was still in it's infancy. I had learned about RNY by doing a search online and happened across ObesityHelp's site. January 21, 2003... I remember that date well because it was the first time I came to the site, and it was the first time I started reading about others' stories, seeing photos, etc. that eventually motivated me to have surgery...
While it wasn't an easy road, it was that I'd do again in a heartbeat knowing the outcome with all its positives and negatives. I lost 225 lbs in the first 18 months and have maintained my weight since. The last 4 years has seen me dealing with multiple medical issues (unrelated to my surgery or weight loss).
If I can offer any advice, it is to love yourself how you are whatever your size, whatever your weight, and do as much as you can do to enjoy life each and every day. Don't wait to do something until you reach so and so lbs... If you can do it, do it...
In 2006 and 2007, long after getting to goal and healing from reconstructive surgeries, I was FINALLY at goal and truly living my life.... Hobbies became new careers for me, and I was "out there" living each moment that I could. Then one day, 9-15-07 to be exact, my world changed. I started experiencing pain that was beyond description.
Without going into great description, let me just add that the lesson learned here is to live every moment you can... Don't let your weight stop you!
:) Caroline
http://Facebook.com/CarolineAnnMartin
It's been a LONG time since I've been online here in ObesityHelp and a long time since I've seen you in person! I so hope this finds you and everyone there in CA well!!!
Sending smiles all the way from PA!
Caroline
http://Facebook.com/CarolineAnnMartin
on 8/4/11 2:29 am - Ocala, FL
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Allison Bottke
Allison Bottke, Author/Speaker
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www.SettingBoundariesBooks.com
I am 28 years old with a almost 4 year old son. I have had a gastric bypass and I am ready to see where this new world takes me.
