At my witt's end...need help

Hmmm...you just made me think of more confession stuff, Joe.  Lack of potasium.  I haven't been taking my meds regularly for weeks!!!  More sporadic than anything. So no meds for bp, no diabetes pills, no cholesterol pills, no vitamins, minerals, not much calcium, pretty much no nothing but what I've been shoving in my face.  Hmmmm.  Chemistry imbalance could be adding to this little scene.  Wow!  Ok, added to list...get back on medication regiment.  You know what?  Now that I'm SEEING what I'm doing or not doing, stuff's starting to add up.  Of course I'm doing all this without being on the pain meds yet.  Ok, looks like I need another heart-to-heart with Matt & enlist his help.  Obviously I'm out of control on the pain meds...can't think clearly...so I NEED his help to get me through all this & back on track, thereby getting HIM on the path he should be on as well.  Snowball effect...it doesn't always have to be a bad thing.  I hope you Newbies are taking notes here...I'm your test dummy for the moment.  Ok, now I'm gonna go take the pain meds.  How come I can knit coherently?  Weird.  Thanks Joe, for sparking that thought.  And thanks for not giving up on me.  That goes to ALL OF YOU!!!

 

 

We have all been there....we have all had our ups and downs. Hang in there and you will get though it just fine. Give your body time to adjust. You cant expect to come through surgery and not have any side effects. Come on..... you can do this...... Thats what we are here for, to get us through the good and the bad times. So come here any time to blow off some much needed steam. Vent on girlfriend, and we will be here for you! Cathy

Anne thank you for sharing this  - you have got great advice from everyone and I know you can follow through. If you are still hsving issues in a week or so feel free to call me and i can try and take you through some steps that my help you understand why you are sabotaging youself - once you rule out medicines etc that may be causing you to feel so hungry. But also you have been through a lot lately  you need to give yourself some time to heal - but of course that is not a license to put junk in your mouth!! ;-)) You can get back on course - you just need to do a little self analysis. If you want help anytime please fell free to call me or IM me... Hugs Jackie

Ann:  I am humbled by all of the great advice you have received on here....so suffice it to say I am thinking of you and know that you are a strong woman, and can get past this!  If there is anything I can do, don't hesitate to get in touch!  :)

Aren't I a lucky gal to have so many loved ones in my corner?  I knew spewing here was the right thing to do & I'm glad I did it.  Each day we are humbled & reminded that this is a work in progress on a daily basis.  So thank you all for speaking the obvious.  Once again I am reminded of how easy it is to hand out advice but so tough to follow one's own advice.  I think that's why I try to be so honest on here...I want to help others as you have all done for me on more than one occassion but I don't want to be a hypocrit.  I am trying to follow ya'lls lead, as many of you have fessed up your weak times too.  I think that's where I've gotten the courage to speak up when my knee-jerk thought is to just hide all this inside.  So thank you for keeping me honest.

I feel more empowered, more optimistic than I did last night.  I still feel "off" but at least I don't feel hopeless & that's due to all the love & support you have given me that past few hours.  You've given me things to think about, reminded me of things I already knew but I guess chose to overlook.  I am even more convinced that a support group really can be the difference between success & failure in this journey.  I thought I was immune to self doubt...haha...fooled myself!!  You helped to open my eyes.

Today I made some decisions, extended a challenge, & took time & a little $$ for myself.  I had a heart to heart with Matt after having him read ya'lls posts.  He is now on board with us.  I bought a complete new outfit...pants, top, jewelry, shoes...I had my eye liner touched up, got my nails done, had my pits & brows waxed, my hair cut & styled.  I felt great when I arrived at the restaurant to help celebrate my son's girlfriend's birthday.  Both Matt & I ate properly & he came away being surprised at how full he felt on so little.  He's learning.  I finished those hi-dollar sox & am about to start a new pair.  The challenge I issued was a friendly little competition between me & Matt against Chris (my other son) & Amanda (is girlfriend).  Starting May 1st through May 31st, the team that has lost the most weight combined wins a $100 gift card!  Of course this will all be locked in AFTER I get the all clear from my doctors, but I'm pretty sure I should be able to do SOME exercise by then.  So the challenge is on, no more sabotage, & a fun goal to work towards.  Whatever works, right?

I just don't know how to convey my thanks to you all for the outpouring of love & support.  Newbies, take note...this group is for real.  When one of us stumbles, we simply reach out & scoop you up & point you in the right direction again.  No one gets left behind.  I love you all!

 

Oh Ann, I am so happy you have found your way again!!!  It took a lot to come on here and share this.  Good for you, that's always the first step.  Everyone has pretty much said it all, I just really wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.  I'm also rooting for your team to win that gift certificate!!   Anna

Thank you, Anna.  I appreciate your support as well as everybody elses.  Unfortunately my hi spirits are somewhat short lived.  I've not been doing well all weekend.  I don't know what's going on, but I haven't been able to keep much down, food-wise.  Everything gets stuck which then causes me to throw up.  I'm feeling the effects of it all by feeling very tired & listless.  So my game plan is to call my surgeon first thing in the AM & see if he will see me in the afternoon tomorrow rather than wait til my appt on Thursday.  I suspect he will need to loosen my band some & see if that helps.  I don't know what the signs/symptoms are for a slipped band so I intend to ask him about that as well.  All I know is that something just isn't "right". In the meantime, I'm still optimistic that this will be resolved & I'll be back on track soon.  Lord knows these are mild complications compared to what some here are going through.  I, too, am glad I reached out to ya'll & had the courage to fess up what I was feeling & doing.  In spite of the physical problems, I still was in need of ya'lls intervention & none of you let me down. Words will never express the gratitude I feel in my heart for all of you!!

Ann sorry to read your still having some issues. Hope you get to feeling better soon. Keep us updated as to what your surgeon finds after you speak with him. Your in my thoughts and prayers.