Confession...Need a kick in the buttinski!

Confession time. It has always worked for me in the past...and I always drag my feet doing this...but it is the only thing that truly saves me. I have been eating like a piggy oinker all week. My biggest problem is getting up in the night to eat. For some reason I am stuck on peanut butter and will get a spoonful everytime I get up. I like the PB 2 it is great..but I always reach for the real peanut butter. UGH Earlier in the week it was snickers....got through that then hubby brings more home tonite....UGH again! So I was good tonite and passed it by and gave it to him. And I have done ok so far today...I have only had 400 calories. My problem again is waking up and eating! I am so mad at myself for doing this and I can't seem to stop. I have done this my entire life but for some reason lately the problem is worse. Just remind me again...kick me again....something..I need help with this. I have talked to my doctor..they don't want to give me anything to help me sleep which is fine..I understand but I don't want to ever go back to where I was...ever again. I am afraid if I keep this up that I am going to start gaining again and once that happens that whole loss of control feeling just snowballs and I am scared. Any suggestions..ideas...kicks...comforting words...are all welcome!! Sherri

Hmmmmm....    Hows dat????  lol..Love ya girly, sorry you are jones-in fer de PB!      Muahhhh....  

Thanks....all better now!!! Look at that little tongue smiley!!....I bet that's what I look like in the night..lol hugs Sherri

Oh Sherri We can't have you doing that as you are such a great inspiration to us all!  Having said my piece about what you do for us, I will now talk about what you can do for you and what we can do for you.  So here comes the condensed version of the counselor in me. First off,  You and ultimately, YOU, have made the changes and decisions in your life that have gotten you to the great place you are now; that doesn't mean it was easy, nor does it mean you always liked it; It does mean that YOU  HAVE THE POWER WITHIN YOU TO MAKE THE BEST CHOICES TO A HAPPIER AND HEALTHIER YOU!   That power has not left you, it is only weaker at this point and time.  Getting the proper rest will help you become stronger in order to resist the temptations.  I have found that when I have my insomnia times, and yes it seems to last for more than a day or two, I have to focus on my rest, and for me that means visualizing nothing but a black curtain.  Everytime I try to think about something else, I revert my miind to the black screen.  Usually after a bit I fall back asleep.  It's ok to backslide for a bit, it doesn't make you weak but rather stronger, however you have to find your inner power and peace and move forward again.  I also find that I look for the Bible and prayer to help guide me.  I often look in the index and find the words of what I'm feeling and read the verses and find some inner strength.  I don't know if any of this will help you, but I do pray that you find the answer for you somewhere because you are very important to all of us here, doubts and all!!!!!  Be at peace and know that I and probably many others are rooting for you!!

Still laughin at Fred....LOL Traci.....thankyou sooo much. What you say makes a lot of sense to me...Yes I suffer from insomnia..and my hours are all over the place. So even when I do fall asleep it isn't sound sleep really....always up about every hour, getting a drink...eating peanut butter...going to the potty...eating peanut butter...and eating peanut butter...lol Hmmm wondering about meditation after what you have said it got me thinking about it. I just don't know for sure how to do it...think I am going to do some google searches on it. I have heard it really helps..and have heard Yoga really helps people with insomnia and sleep problems. Thanks for reminding me that I still have the control and power within myself. hugzzzzz!! Sherri

Hon, do you scrapbook?    

No.....I do jewelry....is scrapbooking relaxing? Oh dear....sounds like another expensive hobby...lol. But the good news would be that I already have tons of things here to use for scrapbooking already :-) hmmmm...cool idea

Hey again..What I was thinkin of with scrapbooking is...Its easy to do just ONE page, then go back to bed...Like one page isn't TOO involved, TOO stimulating to keep you from going back to bed...I'm talkin SIMPLE scrappin, not the real involved stuff with all the brads, srtings, chalks, inks, ect... Just simple layouts...

Sheri - I had suffered from insomnia for years and started doing yoga about 6 months ago.  To be honest, I hadn't put it together until now, but I sleep through the night most nights now and I wonder if it has something to do with yoga!  You would love it, at least give it a try.  Also, I no longer have back pain.  It's good stuff all the way around.

 

Sherri,

Quantum materiae materietur marmota monax si marmota monax materiam possit materiari?

Fred