Got my date! And I thought it was scary *before*!

OK, I was having lots of peace with my decision, but now that I have a date - another scary patch.  I guess I wouldn't be human!  Right now, it's fears about telling people (I haven't discussed it except with my partner and another close friend who was lukewarm to the idea).  I originally decided not to tell until after the fact, but even then it feels scary (OA friends especially).

I'm just going keep acting "as if" and putting one foot in front of the other.  Thanks for your all's support!!

I hear ya. Its a BIG decision and getting a date = reality check.

For other reasons, I had to wait 9 months so had a LOT of time to come to decision that this was what I really wanted.I wanted to be sure before I told anyone. I did a mass email with lots of facts and research that I did. Everyone was supportive AND amazed at how  much I had put into this decision (plus all the requirements via insurance). AND my sister offered to take me to my surgery at the crack of dawn.

This WILL HAPPEN.. YEAH YEAH YEAH!! The NEW you is a coming!!

Congrats~Jan

Yes, I am actually afraid of waiting to tell my family - that they'll be offended!  Lots to ponder!  Thanks for the encouragement!!

I know what you mean. I have tried to talk to folks about it but ya get that look...ya know the one. I have only told my children and hubby.  I am excited for you! I I just found out today that my insurance DOES cover the sleeve. Which was and is my first choice.
Just keep acting "as if" and all will be alright. You have many friends here.

Yes, I was approved no problem, just a backup of applications at Anthem caused a delay.  This is certainly a great place! 

 I am also getting alot of negative feedback. Alot of people are telling me I'm not that big. I am 5'4 am weighed 212 before pre-op I lost 7 pounds so far on the pre-op diet. They tell me that I am doing so well on the pre-op diet that I should just keep doing that and lose the weight. I am also a self pay. So they tell me that I am crazy to make a loan to pay that when I am not that big to begin with. My surgery is in a week. Depending on the day I have my doubts.