This very moment will change for the rest of my life

DrHollywood
on 9/27/11 3:55 pm - Harbor City, CA
OOOOO that is poweful gift you just said, " I am the only one causing this pain by not walking away"
WOW....  That totally hit home.....  now I have to do something about it....
I feel week just thinking I am never or attemptin never to see him again.  he prolly doesnt
even care because he has not invested neartly what I have invested in him.

you gave me that powerful sentence and i am sure thinking......  yep my thinker is going.
thank you ...hugggs

                      ✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
                         "Keeping The Faith!"   "Slim by Summer!"
                                    HW: 250 - SW: 241  - CW: 154.7GW: 140  

     
 1 month: 22 pounds (2162 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8)  3 months: 10.6  (193.2)
 4 months: 9.7  lbs  (183.5)  5 Months:   6  pounds  (177.5 ) 
6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
 7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!!  2.6 pounds (148.4)


  
                                  Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011   (199.7)

                                  "Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)

                                  "Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011  (189.6)

                                   "Groovyland 70`s"  June 20th 2011  (179.9)

                                    " HippyDippyland 60's"  July 16th  (169.8)

                                       " CQQL-land 50`s"  August 25th ( 159.8)

                        "Normal BMI"   24.8  October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6

                                 "AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                              "Century Club 100 Pounds"  Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                                        ' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"

                                           Two Year Surgiversary!!!"


                                                                     

LeahBea
on 9/28/11 1:52 am
VSG on 05/31/11 with
You're welcome Doc. And in all fairness, I wrote it not just for you but because I am trying to be honest with myself about my situation.

We are better than this. And while remembering that/ believing it may be hard (for me anyway) it is the truth. We deserve the best life has to offer. And if we want it we just need to reach out and take it.

We've got this! ((hugs))

Leah
    
                                            

darlinggirl1998
on 9/27/11 11:19 am - Victorville, CA

I know its easier said than done but really let him go.  One of two things will happen, 1, he will realize what he had and he will start to chase you or 2, he is a total douche and he will be better off out of ur life.  either way its a win for you.  u r too awesome for this bull****!!!

DrHollywood
on 9/27/11 3:56 pm - Harbor City, CA
I just adore you right now....    I needed to hear this...  thank you!

                      ✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
                         "Keeping The Faith!"   "Slim by Summer!"
                                    HW: 250 - SW: 241  - CW: 154.7GW: 140  

     
 1 month: 22 pounds (2162 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8)  3 months: 10.6  (193.2)
 4 months: 9.7  lbs  (183.5)  5 Months:   6  pounds  (177.5 ) 
6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
 7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!!  2.6 pounds (148.4)


  
                                  Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011   (199.7)

                                  "Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)

                                  "Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011  (189.6)

                                   "Groovyland 70`s"  June 20th 2011  (179.9)

                                    " HippyDippyland 60's"  July 16th  (169.8)

                                       " CQQL-land 50`s"  August 25th ( 159.8)

                        "Normal BMI"   24.8  October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6

                                 "AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                              "Century Club 100 Pounds"  Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                                        ' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"

                                           Two Year Surgiversary!!!"


                                                                     

Spiritus
on 9/27/11 3:48 pm - Hawthorne, CA

so good to see that you recognise this now...before surgery, how long would you have put up with that sort of behavior?  be proud that you see it for what it is now....and be still with the knowledge that you will pick better when you are ready for better.  losing weight is the easy part, the reasons why we gained and kept the weight for so long is the real battle...

 

                                                                                                                                                                     
           

DrHollywood
on 9/27/11 3:57 pm - Harbor City, CA
I would have put up with it for years before i would get to this point with what I am feeling
right now.  OK...  yes be proud that I am recognizing it  or sick of it, or becoming aware of it.
Thaaaaaaaaaaaaank you....    huuuuuuuuuuuuuugs

                      ✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
                         "Keeping The Faith!"   "Slim by Summer!"
                                    HW: 250 - SW: 241  - CW: 154.7GW: 140  

     
 1 month: 22 pounds (2162 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8)  3 months: 10.6  (193.2)
 4 months: 9.7  lbs  (183.5)  5 Months:   6  pounds  (177.5 ) 
6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
 7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!!  2.6 pounds (148.4)


  
                                  Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011   (199.7)

                                  "Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)

                                  "Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011  (189.6)

                                   "Groovyland 70`s"  June 20th 2011  (179.9)

                                    " HippyDippyland 60's"  July 16th  (169.8)

                                       " CQQL-land 50`s"  August 25th ( 159.8)

                        "Normal BMI"   24.8  October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6

                                 "AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                              "Century Club 100 Pounds"  Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                                        ' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"

                                           Two Year Surgiversary!!!"


                                                                     

hrford
on 9/28/11 2:15 am
VSG on 03/19/12
 Yep been there done that.  I even married one.  I'm still married to him!  But I'm one of the ones that actually win the lottery, we got counceling about 2 yrs into our marriage and both of us have made a LOT of changes.  It's funny, if I was the girl I am now when I met him I never would have married him.  He treated me like ****  But now we have a healthy and happy relationship.  Weird.  I wouldn't bank on being like me though.  By far most of us don't change.

Honestly, it isn't worth being miserable with someone just to be with them.  I know that now.  Life is entirely too short to spend it wishing you weren't living it.  That's one of the main reasons I am planning this surgery.  I'm tired of taking 3rd chair.  I'm ready to be #1.

HW: 270 SW: 234.4 CW: 135.0 1stGW:149 (GOAL MET)afreshstart-hreneeh.blogspot.com/
1st 5k: 5/12/12 44:55  PR 4miles: 12/31/2012 35:49
  

DrHollywood
on 9/28/11 5:36 pm - Harbor City, CA
Thank you..  I needed so much to hear, " it isnt worth being miserable with someone
just to be with them."  I sooOoooo do that.  WHY?   ughhhhhh   well, I am recognizing
it early when normally I stay and put up with it.  I dont want that for me anymore.
Thanks for sharing...   huuugs

                      ✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
                         "Keeping The Faith!"   "Slim by Summer!"
                                    HW: 250 - SW: 241  - CW: 154.7GW: 140  

     
 1 month: 22 pounds (2162 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8)  3 months: 10.6  (193.2)
 4 months: 9.7  lbs  (183.5)  5 Months:   6  pounds  (177.5 ) 
6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
 7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!!  2.6 pounds (148.4)


  
                                  Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011   (199.7)

                                  "Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)

                                  "Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011  (189.6)

                                   "Groovyland 70`s"  June 20th 2011  (179.9)

                                    " HippyDippyland 60's"  July 16th  (169.8)

                                       " CQQL-land 50`s"  August 25th ( 159.8)

                        "Normal BMI"   24.8  October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6

                                 "AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                              "Century Club 100 Pounds"  Dec 1st 2011  (149)

                                        ' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"

                                           Two Year Surgiversary!!!"


                                                                     

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