Horrible night -

Ok, so this was the worst night since my surgery, I am a mess tonight. Not that it's an excuse but it's that time, and I wanted something sweet. I thought I was making a good choice by eating a few of the pure fruit Buddy Bites I got for the baby, but had no idea it was going to trigger me into the evening I had. I went on to make a bad choice for dinner, then had two nilla waffers (followed by two more!), and just now I caught myself reaching for the Carmel corn my hubs was eating.

I understand that everyone will have bad eating days, but I am so disappointed in myself and when I realized what I was reaching for with the carmel corn I just busted out in tears. It amazes me how quickly those old habits can come back, all from ONE small trigger. I am happy though that I was able to catch myself b/f it really got out of hand.

Tomorrow I pick myself back up, and get back with the program, but tonight I am going to drown my disappointment in another 20 ozs of water and go to bed! I can't change what I did today, but I can control what I do tomorrow!

Don't beat yourself up about what is now in the past. That is yesterday, tomorrow is a new day and a new beginning. That is one thing we have all been blessed with, new beginnings. If it were not for those, none of us would be here. So, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start off anew!

Hugs!
Carlen

 Thanks! Today is a new day, and I feel much better this morning! 

I feel for you and we have all been there.  I just want to warn you to be extra vigilant tomorrow because if you are sensitive to carbs as triggers, this often lasts for a 48 hour period.  You need to detox a bit.  Drink a lot, and I mean a lot of water, tea, whatever.  Stay away from carbs for a bit and it will be OK again.  I am sorry you had a rough night.  Later, not now, you might consider sitting down and getting really honest with yourself about what triggered you in the first place.  Think in terms of what you were feeling, thinking at the time.  Was it a particular time of the month or time of day?  What did you say to yourself right before you had the first bite.  The clearer you get about what really happened, the better you will be at preventing it from happening again.  This is not about willpower, it is about working out the head issues and substituting new habits.  We all have to do this work to be successful.  I am wishing a restful night and an easier day tomorrow.

For me it is about a 5 day detox....especially if it is straight sweets....fruit doesn't seem to but if its cookies or cake or the like, 5 days I'll be foaming at the mouth trying to get to as many as I can....

but once I fight it off, its gone till I do something stupid again.....great advice about examining for triggers....

 Thanks for the warning! I actually DID wake up foaming at the mouth, thinking about bagels (I have not had one since my LAP BAND surgery over THREE years ago!). But I drank my shake, and downed my water, had a good solid protein lunch and I am already starting to feel better. 

You are right, my trigger was not just the fruit, that was just the start of the whole mess. Last night after I got into bed I talked it all out with hubby, and the truth is I am feeling guilty over a stupid mistake I made on Friday. A mistake that is going to cost us a bit of money that we really don't have right now, and I was literally wracked with guilt over it and didn't want to talk to my husband about it b/c I felt stupid. After talking it out and putting it to rest I am back on solid ground.

I am learning to cope with my feelings without food, but damn it always seems to be the first place I go without even thinking about it.

Thanks for everything, your post really made a difference.

Well I am glad for you that you recognized the action and can now watch for those things and I think it's so hard for people who have an entire family in the house. Where as a single person can keep no food in the house. I wont until I am post op 3-4 weeks. I have my protein mix, broth, crystal lite, and sugar free popsicles. I know you feel bad but you're really my biggest inspiration. You give so much insight to alot of us and keep up the good work.

Thank you so much for the kind words, it really is difficult with the little ones around but most of the time I can control it. After I looked at the situation closer I realized it wasn't the food that triggered me, but my guilty feelings over something that happend on FRIDAY! It's crazy how it can get you out of the blue, but I am learning and taking this one step at a time.

 Not to make lite of your bad day, but I find humor in what we call a horrible cheat day. I used to eat a half of bag of oreos after my mcdonalds fast food run. Then a pizza for dinner with the other half of bag when I had a bad day. White carbs and sugars are definitely triggers for most of us. Unfortunately we are all human. Tomorrow is a new day.