Okay! Alright! I see some changes! Sheesh!
I have been stringently avoiding reflections of myself of any kind for decades. I have a weird thing in my head where I do not feel fat, or feel that I look fat, unless I'm confronted with the image. Even then I work a little mind trick to stay distanced from the reality. In my head I see myself at my goal weight and I feel like I'm at goal weight - always have.
The only mirror in my house is my bathroom mirror over the sink. My husband and friends have been commenting on the changes they are seeing. I know I am smaller since I'm wearing smaller clothes. I know there is more space between my thighs, that my waist is a lot thinner, that my butt has definition now. My calves are more toned.
But my comments on the changes have been non-committal.
That said, I did see a longer reflection of myself in the gym bathroom and felt my head image jibe a little more with what I actually look like. It was odd, and I really struggled with acknowledging it. Almost like if I acknowledge that I'm looking more "normal" it will somehow make me feel fat.
Weird, huh?
The only mirror in my house is my bathroom mirror over the sink. My husband and friends have been commenting on the changes they are seeing. I know I am smaller since I'm wearing smaller clothes. I know there is more space between my thighs, that my waist is a lot thinner, that my butt has definition now. My calves are more toned.
But my comments on the changes have been non-committal.
That said, I did see a longer reflection of myself in the gym bathroom and felt my head image jibe a little more with what I actually look like. It was odd, and I really struggled with acknowledging it. Almost like if I acknowledge that I'm looking more "normal" it will somehow make me feel fat.
Weird, huh?
I avoid the mirror as much as possible that might change when I get more weight off but idk. I see myself differently when I see pics or myself in the mirror sometimes I look like a normal weight which is a complete lie to myself lol I'm far from a normal weight and then sometimes I see myself way bigger then what I am so idk it's a weird thing. Makes this weight loss and life style change a lil difficult at times. I totally see where you're coming from tho.
weird but so true, I have felt sort of the same way. It's like fearing our new reality. I'm only four weeks out and my family tells me of all the changes they see and I just semi smile. Today for the first time in over a month I looked at my reflection in the gym mirror and saw those changes. I noticed my chain fitting loser around my neck but didn't dare look below my shoulders like, I felt like I was ignoring an enemy from my past that I wasn't yet ready to forgive or deal with.
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