Damn, damn and double damn....I am not ok and I need to face it....*long*

Thank you so much!

Those of us who suffered abuse as children have to learn to love that child.  It's not easy.....but it can be done.  I haven't had the benefit of formal therapy, but I've found ways to deal with what happened to me and now that little girl has a secure place to get the nurturing she needed over 55 years ago.

There's more I want to say, but you've been counseled well here, so I'll keep to this:  you are a lovely young woman, you are being a spectacular Mom.  You have accomplished so much with your sleeve and you are living a successful life.  Be proud of yourself for overcoming an incredibly difficult start in life to be where you are today.

I wish I could hug you and help you heal...............the best I can offer are good thoughts, warm and comforting cyber-hugs, and hopes that you find the best path to follow as you deal with these feelings you're having.

Feel the love we are all sending your way...............

Ree

Thank you! Your words struck a nerve, I think sometimes its easy to forget about how much we have gained when we spend so much time looking over our shoulder at the things we "lost". It's time to take stock of what I have in life, not what I don't. I see a good sit down with a pen and paper making a list of my blessings, that always helps to put things in a better perspective.

Thank you!

Wow.  I really wish I had something to say that would help, but I don't think there are any magic words. :(  I'm so sorry for everything you've been through, but so happy for you that you made it through all of that to become this amazing person.  Maybe the trigger is the holidays.  They seem to be sooooooooo emotionally charged.

I hope that you find some peace ... and if I can do anything, listen or whatever, please let me know. 

Just know you read my post and reached out is all the magic I need, thank you so much!

I know many here have given great words of encouragement. I don't have any advise except just keep going forward. I also had a crappy childhood with some pretty awful stuff so I understand. There are probably many of us here who had issues early in life that helped contribute to our issues with food. It has taken me a long time to get to a place where I understand that the crap I endured as a child and teenager was not my fault and it wasn't yours either.

Also, by putting your story out there for all of us, you in a way encouraged many people who have been in that kind of situation. Hopefully you will be able to continue to overcome.

I think most people would be FLOORED by the amount of WLS patients who have endured some kind of abuse/neglect as a child, it broke my heart hearing all the stories in Atlanta and learning that so many of these bright, beautiful people felt they had to hide their light for so long because of it.

Thank you so much for your post. HUGS

Thanks for sharing the truth....its humbling and yeah many do think that the only problem in their life is their weight and if that goes away that they will be great.

In reality....many of us got fat because of other reasons.  I'm proud of you though and I think the good part of you will win this battle.

Sean