Why, Why, Did I Choose This??

When you're up to your ass in alligators, it's difficult to remind yourself that your initial objective was to drain the swamp!

YUP, what they said. I don't know how many times I said, "why did I do this to myself."  It get's better, hang in there (not that you have a choice at this point).

I am right there with you a lot of the time.  I had my surgery two weeks ago today.  I am hungry all the time, I have diarrhea most of the time, I have 4 small kids (8, 6, 4, 18 months) and I feel like I am ruining their summer.  At least I am blessed with my husband being a teacher and he is home to help, but he really does not understand and just kind of stares at me in bewilderment.  I would like to go to sleep and just wake up in a few weeks able to eat cheese sticks and jerky!  I want popcorn and Diet Coke and maybe a glass of wine (I know these things won't be happening, but still... it is my pity party, right).  

I just wanted you to know that you are not alone and I am sure that things will get better.  Hugs.

I had lapband surgery in 2002.  I remember thanksgiving was a day or two after I got out of the hospital and was TORTURE.  Here are things to think about, little things I can't do now, but could during the time I had the band and before it had to be removed:

• Crossing my legs. I remember when I first realized I was crossing my legs.  I wanted to scream on top of a mountain
• Tying my shoes without struggling
• fitting in a booth
• buying clothes at a store and not being stuck buying them solely on the net
• WALKING
• I remember the first fire drill we had and I went down 17 floors and was not out of breath or thinking I was going to have to crawl across the street.

Keep your eye on the long term.  Write a list of those things you want to do when the weight is gone.  Oh, one I forgot, and I hope is true with the sleeve as it was with the band:  Food wasn't on my mind at all.  Those first weeks are the hardest but really listen to your doctor and eat as he or she has ordered.

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!  Your support means the world to me right now.  Thank you for helping me see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I survived another day!

PS.........really love the alligator/swamp reference!!  SO TRUE