In a Weird Place Right Now

Keith,

 

Thanks for posting this.  I was "this" close to stopping at the bakery for a donut this morning.  No one knows me there and no one would know.  Scary old behavior.  I didn't stop, had my protein shake for breakfast and getting ready to take a walk.  This helps me feel not so alone.

Tina

You are certainly not alone! Be carefule of the "No one knows me there and no one would know" mindset. It is up to you to keep yourself on track, no one else.

This happens to me e ven at 3.5 years out. I was successful at ignoring the old triggers for a few years,but this last year not so much.

It brings home to me the fact that as you said,it is never over. NEVER. I will NEVER be normal about food. The only thing I can do is keep the faith that I CAN and WILL be able to avoid temptation e rest of my life.

Being two years further down the path than you,I would venture to say,that after a year of going hot, your mojo is waning a bit. Trust me,it doesn't get easier the farther out. You are. Even in maintenance,which I am not in yet, it will be a constant draw on. Your strength.

Haven't got any wise words for you,just sharing my reality.

You are right about the mojo, time to get some new juju for my mojo. Fortunately I live in south florida and finding voodoo priestesses is fairly easy.

Yes, it is the lack of sleep.  That is the main culprit, however, I am certain that other things are also happening.  Being further out than you, I can give you a preview of how this goes or at least how it went for me.  At about a year out more or less, we become tired of doing what we have been doing to get the weight off.  You are back in a situation where old habits were the norm, you are a year out,  you have used exercise as a huge part of your program, and you are close to maintenance which means you are losing much slower.  All of these things make you vulnerable right now.  This journey is made up of moments, decision points if you will, you are at one right now.  I congratulate you for noticing.  That gives you a fighting chance to regroup, reevaluate and refocus.  If you just keep doing what you are now doing, it will slip away.  Find something new to focus on, a goal and a new behavior.  This will infuse your attitude with a new energy.  This is a time of change, which change and in what direction, is up to you. 

Very good insight. Its funny how when we hit these points deep inside we are hoping for some magic solution but the answer remains the same, "regroup, refocus, its up to you". 

As always, thanks for your words of wisdom. The sleep thing was just last night, should get a good nights sleep tonight and the rest of the week as well.

As for something new to focus on, great idea, I have been working on creating some new fitness goals so that can be something.

Get some rest. You'll feel better tomorrow.  :)

You are definitely in an odd place right now... just like Elina said, when we get about 1 year out & around that time when we have to work 100 times harder to get those last 20 pounds off.  Stay consistent and do your best to not stray, you will be glad you stuck to it. 

For me, being 2 years out feels more like I did BEFORE my VSG, sad but true ... cravings, being able to eat more, etc.  I still feel tightness in my sleeve but mainly only when I eat solid dense protein.  This is definitely a never ending battle to say the least.

I am not going to stray but you are right. I do find myself eating more and giving into the "just one bite" or "maybe just a small piece" temptations lately and without a whole lot of thought. I made a comment yesterday about being mindful, I really just need to start focusing on that, not only with weight loss and eating but with everything.

Keep your chin up.  Nobody is perfect and know that we are all here to support.  My only advice (that you probably don't need) is to go workout and see if the urge persists after your workout.  If it does, find a happy medium that isn't quite as bad (like a "sweet" snack) and move on.

I just got back in from out of town and had a few temptations myself.  I went 4/5 with one piece of 40 calorie chocolate!  Instead of looking at the one that went down, I looked at the 4 that didn't.  Next time, I'll build on the 4 and try to get better.

You can do it!