Perfect Storm of Stress and I Want To Eat
It really is a shame that after making all the necessary changes to eat healthy and exercise that your emotional comforters do not somehow adapt.
I am at maximum level of stress today because of a number of factors and almost none of them are in my control or even anything I can do about them except wait it out. But it doesn't change the fact that I am super stressed. I have exercised, I have meditated. I have yelled. After all of that all I want to do is eat. Why is that the what my stupid brain wants to do, knowing full well that it will not alleviate the stress.
Why our our brains so irrational?
Don't worry anyone I will not be eating anything or going off plan. I brought only what is on my plan today to consume so even if I jumped the rails right now I would do no nutritional/weight loss damage (BTW this is a key weight loss strategy).
Now I am not sure I would want to be any of my co-workers today and I am sure at least one or two people are going to be told to F-off, but I will do my best to control myself.
It is he JOB we are doing! It is the lessons for this life time, I have to work the Alanon steps with this program I have to! It is so hellpful to work the AA step wow the Hazelden sm booklets are awesome so thought provoking so powerful each step has 1 small booklet that elaborates the step good medicine brother! I have them on my kindle it is such a path keeper! So i have een looking at the carbs in bean Holy Grandfather I am learning ALOT! So to many cabs! Thanks again thanks to you counting in a NEW way!
Unless one of the steps is shooting my employer, strangling my wife, locking my kids in a closet, bombing the neighbors, tearing the phone out of the wall, and sitting down to eat a giant container of ice cream, I am not sure they are going to help today.
All kidding aside, you are probably right. I never considered myself addicted to food and I still do not think I am. I do love it and clearly I still have some sort of emotional connection to it but stopping eating or walking away from food was never really my problem. However dealing with outside influencers would clearly benefit from an approach like this.
Hey, there might actually be something to this. I only got through the demonstration of the points (I was doing it along with her) and I had to pause because I was getting an audience but even just literally a few seconds and I feel a little better. Amazing!
Here is the video I found in case anyone is interested:
I feel you. So much so, I actually made an appointment with my GP to start talking about potentially going on some anxiety meds. My stress is out of control, I'm not sleeping, I'm on emotional over drive and everything is ******g me off. It's also calling me back to old habits of comfort, basically food. It's stupid, doesn't make me feel better, and is actually contributing to my stress and anxiety. Thus the appointment with my GP. Not saying this is the same thing for you, just saying I understand. Nothing is working and my brain keeps screaming at me to squi**** all down with food.
I could use a Xanax right about now, I am not going to lie. It is one thing when the stress is within your control, you can talk it out, punch it out, kill someone. But when the stress is outside of your control and you do not see light at the end of the tunnel, it has a tendency to snowball.
To top it all off my exercise is suffering because I am feeling very fatigued. Not even sure they are not related at this point.
If it was within my control, it wouldn't be stressful because I'd fix it ;) I'm sure the fatigue is directly related to the stress. I, quite frankly, want to lock myself in a closet with a dozen cupcakes, a pack of cigarettes and a couple bottles of wine.
Anyways, hugs, Keith. We'll get through it, and while I have nothing helpful to add, I can certainly commiserate
