had my first breakdown today

Had surgery last friday and really have been in great spirits. My hospital stay was like a vacation. Yesterday was my first blah day, and a day where I really wanted to eat. But it was tolerable. And I think it stemmed from not getting enough rest the night before.  So today started out great. Was on top of my fluids from the get go.  Hung out with  my mom, played board games, took the kids to the park, the weather was awesome. Then I sent my husband to the store to pick up an rx for my son and I told him to get some food for my mom and the kids to eat tomorrow. He came home with 2 giant stuffed mushrooms from the butcher block. These mushrooms are one of our favorite splurges. And they haven't had them in FOR.EVER. But they just brought them back so he bought them so he could eat them before his VSG pre op diet starts in a week.  For some reason those mushrooms just pushed me over the edge. I was trying so hard to not cry over them.  But there I was mixing up my chicken broth for dinner for the 8th night! I'm so sick of clear liquids. But it was doable until I saw those mushrooms. I think I've tolerated a lot this week. He's brought home little things here and there. But that just felt so insensitive. He felt really bad, and cried right along with me. He also offered to throw them away, but dang I'd want to eat them before my surgery too. SIGH. Anyway, Sorry this is kind of all over the place. Just needed to vent a little I guess. 

Oh how I understand! You will get through this it's a roller coaster ride for sure. At least your husband can understand sounds like he is trying to get through his food issues also. Hang in there you will be eating in no time. Sorry your going through it and he is lucky that you will be prepared and supportive for him when he goes through it.

I understand! I got upset because my husband was making chicken korma with rice and it smelled AMAZING! It was torture! You can do this... hang in there!

Oh my. Chicken korma??? I might have cried, myself, over that one!

I told hubby after I'm past all the "stages" and I'm a little further out, I'll make a bit of chicken tikka masala again. It's possible to make it healthy. And I'll skip the rice, of course.

My husband picked up mcdonalds on the way driving me to the hospital so I know exactly how you feel! He is the most supportive person in the world so I wasn't really mad...but I struggled with it. You are 6 days out. I promise it gets easier. Dinner time is important for me. I forced myself to sit at the table and even cooked my favorite meals for them....while I sat there and drank my clear protein supplement. I was not going to let this decision over power family time that I hold near and dear.

You are stronger than those mushrooms lol. It's just ..food...that we loved so much...which also led us to the decision to have surgery. The first week sucks! Second week full liquids...a little better....third week puréed...a little better...and so on.

But vent away and know that others feel the same way! What you have that others don't is a live in partner who will be going through the same thing. That is going to be huge in your success! When you finally fit back into the "fat pants" that you grew out of you will see that the mushroom has no hold over you anymore! And you get to get him back because he will be on clear liquids when you get to start soft solids lol.

i hope your husband Has a successful surgery as well!

My therapist would probably ask me what those mushrooms really represented?  What were you really feeling?  Were you missing the closeness you felt to your husband during mushroom night?  OR were you feeling something completely different - overwhelmed, lonely, insecure... and then realized that you could not eat the stuffed mushrooms to drown out that emotion?    I might be all wrong!  But I do know I experienced the same... probably still will... a "mourning" over the loss of my best friend, food.   Best wishes - you got this!

It's an adjustment, for sure. When I was newly sleeved my daughter brought a dozen Krispy Kreme donuts home. Then my son decided to have a grilled cheese sandwich. And there I was..drinking my broth feeling kind of sore and pitiful. 

It DOES get better! I promise! Hang in there, let your new tiny tummy heal and rest until it's time for your pureed stage. Nothing wrong with a good cry, your hormones are going to be all over the place for awhile as your body adjusts to it's new normal. And if you've been reading the posts, guys get hormonal, too when they get sleeved. While you're eating solid food he may still be on the full liquid phase and be there for him if he cries, too. 

Hugs.  You've discovered the hard way that the real battle is not the physical - it's the mental and emotional!  I still go through periods of food grief when I see certain foods; especially ones that I know are triggers for me.  And I've been doing his for 8 years (had a lap band for 7 years, revised to VSG last year).  

As you both progress through the stages, you can start experimenting with healthy, fresh food.  There are thousands of new taste profiles you haven't experienced out there just waiting for you!  

I think it's wonderful that you and your hubby are taking this journey together.  What you learn will make real impact on your kids' lives too!  

I went a bit off my plan yesterday...ate pasta...and felt AWFUL for it.  I am back being prepared today with my shakes and salads and veggie burger.  I know I will fell so much better both physically and mentally for it.  I faltered a few days ago and had a sugar filled Starbucks drink that made me so sick I had to go home and lay down for a while.  It's getting easier, but the old ways sneak back in now and then.  I learn, again, and get back on track.  That's something I've never been able to do before.  Getting back on track is SO much easier since surgery.

You'll do great!

Jane