What the hell just happened.....
Okay, I'm a month out. Doing well. My inlaws are visiting and it's my daughters birthday. (My worst nightmare come true right now).
I made Guac for an app and had a few bites not even a whole chip, I licked it off (yeah gross) But no biggie...made Italian Sunday gravy and baked ziti, had a half of meatball and half of sausage, no pasta....not bad.
Served ice cream cake, left the kitchen, didn't even lick the spoon!!! AWESOME
BUT THEN HOURS LATER.... I ate some BBQ potato chips that were out and four bites of potato salad!!! AND....omfg a twizzler!!
what the heck? It's like I snapped and went nuts. I tracked every bite in MFP to stay accountable but seriously... What the hell was that?? It was my first test with entertaining.... And I failed...
I'm mad and even more that that disappointed and a little scared that my stomach handled all of t like a pro, just the classic burp or two.
Tell me to move on and tomorrow's a new day...
man, I still can't believe it!
Do yourself a favor... mention this entire episode to your therapist/counselor. She should ask you to rate (on a scale from 1 to 10 , including a decimal place like 6.2) your binge experience in severity. Then, break apart the different episodes of the day... your child's birthday, the kids,... then rate your inlaws being there and experiences with them. Group them by severity level and determine if there is anything that jumps out at you. It could be a culmination of everything but, in my experience, it is usually 1 or 2 things that lead to the binge. **Even if it is just being deprived of those things... Key in on the thought of deprivation and talk with your therapist about it.
Juniper
Yah, weird,huh...It's like we expect our new tummy to be our...posse...our "Tonto"save-me-side-kick...and , when it isn't, we're somehow surprised and disappointed. Welcome to the reality of WLS... it's all on you ( yah, and I mean Me, sister). It's all ok-- no real harm done... consider it homework, and lesson learned. Hugs- bonnie
goal!!! August 20, 2013 age: 59 High weight: 345 (June, 2011) Consult weight: 293 (June, 2012) Pre-Op: 253 (Nov., 2012) Surgery weight: 235 (Dec. 12, 2012) Current weight: 145
TOTAL POUNDS LOST- 200 (110 pounds lost before surgery, 90 pounds lost Post Op.diabetes in remission-blood pressure normal-cholesterol and triglyceride levels normal! BMI from 55.6 supermorbidly obese to 23.6 normal!!!!
I know I have will power but how long it will last I have no clue!!!!!! In the 3 months since my surgery I had mother's day haters day my 14 yr old bday my 11 yr old bday and my husband's bday!!! All had cakes chips all kinds of thing and I'm ok with that I even baked the cakes .. but they all knew eat what you can that day cause in the morning what ever is left is going in the garbage... and i have and will continue to stick to it forever.... not just for me but for for them also they don't need either... and I'm not going to break !!! So get ride of it all!! :-) good luck!!! :-)
♡ Kelly