You may regret THIS one. The longest post I've ever written. Seven years of regret?

 Are you a member at her forum?  For ****s and giggles?  This is where it started:

http://www.beforeandafterhelp.com/index.php?showtopic=56058&st=0

I think I was back in 04 (?)

But I can't access with the link you gave me. Feel free to give me the cliff notes.

 This was in response to a project I was invited to participate in -  2/2009 - just after the project was announced -

" There is a small spotlight on a group of post op bariatric folks who have started a new online venture. While conversing with our fair haired Teresa, a person in this venture told Teresa that she was in the vast minority of bariatric post ops because she seeks alternatives to the bad behavior that got her to nearly 400 pounds in the first place rather than caving in and eating the doughnuts. 

Wait... isnt that what we are supposed to do? Find something else to eat that doesnt damage what we have worked for. Instead of a half pint of Ben & Jerry's, how about a half cup of Fage yogurt with berries! Instead of a sub, how about ham turkey and a slice of salami rolled up with provolone!

It would be foolish to not acknowledge that there are post ops in the spotlight who work for bariatric websites, bariatric surgeons, bariatric magazines, and there even bariatric bloggers who dont eat the way they are supposed to and these folks simply dont even bother to make excuses other than that 'they arent perfect'. 

If you are going to talk the talk, shouldnt you walk the walk? This new crop of 'seasoned' post ops dont talk the talk OR walk the walk. They are not motivating new post ops to follow the path and change their life... they are rounding up other Doritos eaters who are also looking for vindication. Some of these folks are slim, but many are not. However, slimness alone is not a barometer of good health. Do they take vitamins, do they have deficiencies... if these folks cant even keep the Dairy Queen out of their lives, should we listen to what they think about vitamins? Do we care what they think about the taste of new protein drink? Should we listen to someone speak about food who drinks Coke?

Trust me, IF you are looking for an emotional excuse to eat doughnuts, the universe will provide you with one. Four hundred pound people don't eat ONE doughnut and they sure dont need much pushing to jump into that pool. IF you have had a gastric bypass that Krispy Kreme should make you sick on paper, but if it doesn't, then what will stop you? Nothing will stop you and thats where it all begins to unravel. 

If that is what the majority is like... I am not signing up for that team. I will simply remain in the bariatric minority... drinking a shake if I need extra protein, making a nice sugar free dessert for Saturday night supper, not keeping any real sugar in my house, serving healthy fresh food to my family instead of convenience foods or fast food, and loving the new life I like a whole lot more than doughnuts."

I responded, because I knew that it was in response to my videos. 
QUOTE (meltingmama @ Feb 23 2009, 07:11 PM)  Majority member here. I am a failure.
"Oh wait, did you assume that I was referring to you in this post... considering that I have never watched one nanosecond of anything you have ever done and that I didnt even know you nor did I know of your existence until about a week ago, other than via third party discussions. 

This surgery is not butterflies and roses for any of us, but some of make a conscious decision to make permanent changes to the way we live with no excuses.

However, I do know that you and I have two very different trains of thought, and probably don't belong in the same forum. Thanks for dropping by though."

Exactly.  These days I'm quite close with Teresa, who, threw me under the bus before she quit BE.
   

yeah i read the whole passage and i loved it!!! i love to read your posts and your honesty, maybe you should write a book or just put all your posts in a pod cast or something, thanks for sharing your experiences

Beth, thanks for posting. Thanks to you and your blogs I recognized the RH the first time I got it.. And it stinks. And it is scary... and  yea,  would turn you away from foods you once enjoyed.  It does that to me.  When i look at rice I instantly remember the pain it caused and the RH.  Even brown.  And agree with the fruits comment.  If it does not get stuck, then it may casue RH.  not worth the trouble.

I do go through stages of cooking and trying to make my food taste good... followed by stages ... blah... just make sure I get the proteins , some yogurt ...and enough fat and fiber so I can go...(sorry if TMI...)

The lovely gas...we get... just because...
Yea, yea ... and the unexplained belly pains.. that as long as the pain last 1 day or less... we not even consider it an issue.  lol Walking around a store and rubbing my belly at the same time is no longer source of embarrassment for me...

I have nothing to add really that others haven't already said...no confetti, no rainbows and no bull****that is what I like about you.  The end.

Read every word. Would have read more if you wrote more. ;)

I have never once been disappointed by anything you wrote. Never. Do I always agree 100%? Nope. But do I always respect the hell out of you 100%? Yes. Very much so. And I think I told you the same thing on fb once. Still feel the same way. Keep in mind that I do agree with you 99.85% of the time though.

You are awesome and I love that you truly speak your mind.

Oh gosh... I just deleted about 5 paragraphs of rambling. Don't you all feel lucky. lol

I think you should write a book. First thing though is to come up with a title.. Guess Cupcake Queen ***** is out?

Long may you reign....

Toni

P.S. No peeps were hurt in this message nor cupcakes consumed

 LMAO.

No.  Cupcakes will be long-dead by then.  I'll need a full time editor to take my ramblings and polish them and feed them cupcakes, but otherwise, no.

I might dedicate it though...  "I Never Really Liked Doritos, *****"

I appreciate your openess and the fact that you don't sugar-coat the truth of your experience.  I absolutely hate that you are dealing with all the crap you have going on.  And I don't even know you beyond the posts I've seen around here (I'm relatively new).

I, too, am on anti-seizure meds (Zonegran) but I take mine for neurological pain (for a disease called Syringomyelia - spinal cord injury crap).  It does make me hungry and turned me into a freaking zombie.  My memory is shot from all the daily crap my diseases (I have 2 lovely rare diseases that are too complicated to go into right now) but the zonegran just adds to the perfection that is brain fade.

I hate that it makes me hungry all the time.  I'm not gaining or anything but I do graze a little more often than I did pre-meds.  I'm fine with it.  I can deal with not being a size zero.  You're post and attitude help reinforce the fact that WLS doesn't have to mean size 0 = success.

I also would like to address your gut problems.  I had pancreatitis a few years ago and it was the worst.pain.ever.  And I've had 12 major surgeries including brain surgery.  Nothing worse than pancreatitis.  Have they run labs and found your bilirubins and liver enzymes up?  The pain that you are dealing with sounds exactly like untreated pancreatitis flare ups.  I had my gall bladder out 3 years before I had my attack and it ended up being a stone lodged in my common bile duct that caused the problem.  I suffered for 3 months solid.  I went to the ER 5 times - 3 in one week and the first 2 times in that last week I was told it was "gastritis" and then "ulcer".  Finally I went to a different hospital where they ran blood panels that showed the bilirubin/liver enzymes and someone paid attention. 

The pain from pancreatitis was an insanity-causing nightmare.  I hope you can come to the bottom of this problem and find what's causing it.  Living like that is beyond a nightmare.  You have my sympathy.

 Yes, my enzymes have been elevated each time I went to the hospital.  They say the treatment for pancreatitis was "rest, bowel rest... and rest..." though.   What did they do for you?