MONDAY GRATEFUL POST

Good Monday Everyone,

Hope everyone had a great weekend and is ready for a amazing week.   Everyday when we wake up we should be so very grateful for the gift of another day to make maybe better choices today than we made yesterday.    I know I myself am always ready everyday to do better than the previous day.   The old saying Life is what you make it is pretty much true.    Everyday we decide whether we are going to be successful on this journey called life that we are on or whether we are going to hit some bumps along the way.    We all at one time or another make some not so great choices but we don't need to put down roots and stay there.    Today I am so grateful for a new day every morning to make better wiser choices than the day before whether it be eating....exercising...or whatever it is that concerns my life.    I am so grateful for my family, friends, Obesity Help, for my faith in God and for answered prayers.    I am so grateful for my OH Support group and the two new people from OH that I had the pleasure of meeting yesterday at my meeting.    Grateful for answered prayers.....support and encouragement.    PLEASE share if you'd like what you are grateful for today and have a blessed day and make good choices.    

Hugs and blessings ~~~ Vivian

Sometimes I find it hard to stay positive and I feel sorry for myself, I have lost my son, and both my parents in the last 5 years...sometimes, I get so caught up in all the "bad" of life i forget the good stuff...despite losing my eldest, god gave me 2 beautiful, healthy children, and though they do not replace my first born, I am so grateful for the opportunity to be a mother, and to raise them, with all the stress that comes along with it...it is 830 am and my toddler just went to sleep and my infant will be up soon for a feeding. I have been raising my now, 17 year old sister since she was 9 (parents very ill) and she is a confident, secure in her spot young woman, who knows what she wants...and it makes me happy and proud that everything i sacrificed for her was not in vein. I do wish she wasn't so selfish sometimes, lol but she is a teenager..so i guess it comes with the package. After a lousy first marriage, I met a man who has seen me at my utter worst and still loves and adores me...he is by no means a "tough guy' in fact if you ask anyone we know, I would be more that person..but he has been my strength more times than i can count..he truly is my partner...he has had the opportunity to run many times..and he fights for me, for us..something no one else ever really did. Though i no longer have my parents, i have some great memories, and traditions that i hold dear to me, that i share with my daughter and niece...i keep them alive through them...I was fortunate to have parents I knew loved me...never gave up on me...I am even grateful for my smelly little wound vac...because it has helped decrease healing time, though sometimes i want to throw it out of a window when it malfunctions or beat the doc who did the dressing because this week with the vac has been horrible! 4 nights in the ER for dressing changes because the doc did it wrong in the office, machine eating away at healthy tissue because it was placed on wrong...and because the tape has been removed 8 times in 5 days...my skin is incredibly irritated and itchy...and yesterday i broke down and cried, because it hurt and i was uncomfortable..not to mention the doc pushed back the dressing change...and i am on day 5 with out being cleaned and foam changed and I smell...my toddler said mommy whats that smell..but I go into the office today at 4, and I will be cleaned, and hopefully my depth has decreased from 1 1/2 inches to 1 inch..and I can soon go to wet-dry dressings...the vac has done a great job but I am ready to live my life again and be a mom..being a mom was the one thing I knew i was amazing at, and sometimes I feel like a failure because i cant dance with my little girl or pick her up like i did before...and she doesnt exactly understand that mommy has a boo boo...all in all i am happy i wake up every day with no fever lol..fever= infection...so though my skin is irritated, the docs are kinda useless, and i am kind of smelly...there is no infection (had cultures done last week) no one has called to say they were positive for something...so i am just happy i am healing..wi**** went quicker...but i;ll take what i can get :)

Shaysilva...I am at a loss for words.   I will pray for you to heal if you don't mind.   I too have parents that are no longer on this earth so I know what a loss that is.    I pray that you'll be healed enough soon to loose the wound vac.   I've never experienced one of those but I do realize they are not pleasant.    Thank you for posting your story today and I'm going to keep you in my prayers.    Please keep us updated on your progress.   God bless you sweetie.

Hugs and blessings ~~~ Vivian

Thank you very much, that is actually strangely comforting(being as i dont know you lol) very sweet, and earnest...I know the people on here all have their own stories and hardships..which on some levels I feel I can relate...(i had a csection that got infected, contacted MRSA, dr tried saying it was my weight that did it..but I know better...other docs said differently) I talk to my bestfriend about it, shes never had a csection..shes thin, and she listens but doesnt quite understand the process...its nice knowing that I am not alone when it comes to healing, and being chunky and told that the weight puts you at risk for etc...