ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY - Reflection
Great read Brenda,
As i approach my one year surgiversary, I have been reflecting on the same things. One of the things I thought i'd deal with after the surgery is the WHY. Why did I allow myself to get to 335lbs. I've been looking back at this almost 1 year and realized that I have not dealt with those issues that made me get to that weight and until I get an handle on them, I could very well slip back into those old habits and find myself MORBIDLY OBESE again.
So in an effort to deal with those issues I've done the following:
1) Accept my imperfections and know that those imperfections make me perfect
2) Be honest and real with myself
3) Stop running from ish and DEAL
4) Write my feelings and thoughts down
5) Take some time to be still even if it is no more than 15 minutes a day
6) Learn to FORGIVE MYSELF
7) PRAY
see for me food was my escape. It was my reward when I did well, my sleep aide when I was depressed. I woud eat so much that I'd get tired and go to sleep they're by excaping my problems momentarily. So I'm learning to reward my self in other ways that are not to my detriment and to have another way of escaping.
As i approach my one year surgiversary, I have been reflecting on the same things. One of the things I thought i'd deal with after the surgery is the WHY. Why did I allow myself to get to 335lbs. I've been looking back at this almost 1 year and realized that I have not dealt with those issues that made me get to that weight and until I get an handle on them, I could very well slip back into those old habits and find myself MORBIDLY OBESE again.
So in an effort to deal with those issues I've done the following:
1) Accept my imperfections and know that those imperfections make me perfect
2) Be honest and real with myself
3) Stop running from ish and DEAL
4) Write my feelings and thoughts down
5) Take some time to be still even if it is no more than 15 minutes a day
6) Learn to FORGIVE MYSELF
7) PRAY
see for me food was my escape. It was my reward when I did well, my sleep aide when I was depressed. I woud eat so much that I'd get tired and go to sleep they're by excaping my problems momentarily. So I'm learning to reward my self in other ways that are not to my detriment and to have another way of escaping.
AWESOME!!!! Thank you so much for sharing. I printed your list of seven things and posted on my wall at work. I will tell you that 2, 3, 5,6, and 7 (hell really the whole list, but those specifically) have been on my mind a lot lately.
The surgery has taken care of the physical, but now its time for me to do the hard work on the WHY and the psychological.
The surgery has taken care of the physical, but now its time for me to do the hard work on the WHY and the psychological.
Working on me - want to be better in everyway not just physically!!! Its a process no time to judge or be judged!!!!
