TO SEX or NOT !!!

I am right there where you are now with a new guy. I was the one getting physical because well he is HOT and he worksout errrrr day did I say he is Hott? N.E. Way He was being a perfect gentleman and taking his cues from me. Yes I was being fast,..LOL!

Well when I realized if I keep going like this our 4th real date will end up well you know where. I got scared and ran. He only knows what he sees on the outside with clothes on and while I have exercised as much as I can I still have skin issues, you can't be thrity something, obese all your life and have your skin bounce back like a teenager no matter how much you exercise well in my case anyway.

So I have those fears. What will I do? Hmm I pull back and sometime before I decide I am going there I will have the conversation with him. I will make sure he really, and I mean really likes me before I do that.  I am giving him the benefit of the doubt.

I have had it both ways one guy left me at the dinner table when I told him I had  it and another left my house and to the day I have never heard from him. Then on the other hand I have told two oher guys who say it doesnot matter. Well one just wanted paties and the other eventually went the way of the wind,... soo I guess it depends on the man and what you are wanting.

they way i see it, i gotta have sex. it don't matter if i'm in shape or outta shape....i'm still gonna be gettin it in.

so mentally that helps me be calm and confident no matter whats goin on with me.  plus the rules of compensation apply.  for every one thing you lack, you compensate by excelling in other areas.

I like that!!!