Rebirth (Pre Surgery Contemplation)

And so I shed
my skin
The coat that I have worn for more than half a century
It has kept me warm and safe,
weighted me down and held me back
and I now shed
I shrug it off
with no regrets about why
and who
I just shrug it off
I won't give it to anyone or put it in the closet for another winter in life when it's cold....

I just shrug it off and let it drop into the over stuffed trunk
in my attic
soon to be cleaned out
by my therapist
and me.....

Really love this. I feel you honi....I feel you.

I like this

Lighters up.

Don't take the therapist lightly.  I think that it's shame that only the psych eval is only mandatory.  It should really be for as long as you need it. 

Thanks Hugs. Well you know, it's not about what is made mandatory but what you yourself "make mandatory"...and for me, I knew/know that I have got to work with a professional until I figure out why I put on this fat suit and kept it on all of this time. Why so many times I changed it for a lighter coat and then decided to put the heavier one back on. I need to find out so that I don't have this surgery, lose all the weight and then in a few years wish I didn't throw out all of my clothes cause I need them again....there is an answer to this question and dammit I am going to find it. I don't wanna be fat no mo!