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 OK so I decide to have WLS in 08/09 i went to weigh****chers thinking hey i have packed on some weight now its time to get it off last time i was weighed i was 19 and i weighed in at 275 still obese but i was OK so i think at that weight. so now i am 22yrs old and I'm weighing in at 407 still i ask my self how and when. Well my 1st WW meeting went like this the scale read 445 holy **** is what i said i sat in my car and i cried like i never cried before i did not understand when or how or why... i lost my mind i marched back into WW used there bathroom and then weighed in again at the same weight. That day i didn't sit through the meeting . i began changing my life i began watching what i eat and working i went to the kingly health institute did some training but did not really like my work out but i did loose weight ,,, but do to cost i could not afford it,, i joined la fitness and began doing an hr of cardio ... to speed it up a little i am having so many issues with my insurance my job had an exclusion on it so i have saw many docs which are all great and tried to fight my insurance but it didn't work so now in Feb i still did not have my surgery i have done many test much research. I got a new job so far looks like insurance covers it , also brought an oxford plan for in between jobs i hope something good happen... i laugh because many people say WLS is the easy way out but i don't see it like that . i have spent money researching this surgery that i don't even have eating healthy is very costly but i want to live so i work around the clock so i can have what i need NJ insurance is no good ,,, I'm just venting 

Vent on I'm glad you are going into this knowing it is NOT the easy way out.  It's a life long journey.  I eat out of depressed and stress and if they think it the easy way out wrong. P.S.  I live in my size 10 jeans years around.
Praying for you.

  Kudos to you for having the courage to do something positive for your health.  I wish I could have had WLS when I was in my 20's.  Keep your head up and keep doing your research.  Make sure you look into all of your surgical options and know the pros and cons of each so you can make an informed decision.  Good luck!

Your story is a mirror image to my own...right down to the WW and disbelief at weighing in at over 400lbs, with one lone exception, I waited another 11 years to have surgery. But on the positive side, in those 11 yrs I managed to lose 130 lbs doing exactly what you are now, watching what I ate, incorporating exercise and elevating my self-esteem.  My surgery happened b/c I wanted to donate an organ and was too heavy to do so....

That being said, it will happen.  Trust in God and keep doing what you know is right and it will happen.  {HUGS} its all good girl, this is just a lesson and an opportunity to please Him, don't forget that.

Hi
1ST let me tell u that I am so proud to here that u are trying to make a change in your life and that you realize u have a health issue. its going to be hard, and after surgery it will continue to be hard as well. I went threw so much b4 I finally has my WLS, I had seen a dr. in La for almost a year who had told me my ins covered the lap band (thats what I was going with at 1st) then after doing all the foot work, I come to find out the surgeon didnt cover it. I was so upset! So then I go see another Dr. in Santa Barbara, and I had to do the whole process all over again. I strated to get so frustrated and at one point I almost threw my hands up and said I aint doin this S**T because I felt like I was alway****ting a brick wall. It was one thing after another. It took me a good 2 years before I had my gastric done, but I stayed on it and I didnt give up hope.
It will eventually all come together for you, dont give in and stay strong. It will happen, its just taking a little long  =)

thanks so much i wont give  up im going to do this cus in my heart i have fight i want to live im only 22 and the research and true facts that i kno i can c if i gain nye more weight that it will be the end like im scared if i dont do the sugery what will happen i kno right now my health is ok beside being over weight and my thyroid everything else is ok i kno this is the right road i questioned it many time i joined this site in 07 but i will not lie i was scared then and again i was 275 so i thought i was ok