Confessions of a SMO'ER
THE FEELINGS...............
I was having a hard time yesterday with the feelings of wanting to "stuff" my face and just have that numbing feeling again after gorging myself. i have to drive past a McDonalds on the way home from work and I as of yet have not "craved" that food yet. I am a reformed "drive thru" junkie. I could NOT tell you what I would of ordered. My head just wanted to hold that huge greasy sandwich in my hands and let me take a HUGE bite out of it. (Of course this is impossible now) I could not wait to just pass that damn fast food place.
It was very overwhelming for me. I wanted to cry. I wasn't hungry. I have not had that feeling yet. 
Nothing "set" the feelings off in particular. I was a little stressed at work and I have noticed that I've been fighting the urge to want to pick things up to eat and put it in my mouth without thinking. I guess this is the part where it really starts to get hard and make me think BEFORE I eat. So I'm trying to keep ahead of the game by keeping snacks in my desk that are good for me.
To add a happy ending to this post, I ended up driving past the McD's and heading to Wal Mart to pick up some pictures and mindlessly was walking around and ended up in the Plus size section and seen these jeans and picked them up and said, there is NOOOO way I'm getting these over my caboose!!!!! Well guess what, I tried them on and they fit.
THE BEST PART????? A SIZE 22 
My point to all of this??? I have to deal with the head hunger immediatly, I must have "good" food on hand and make the personal decision as to how I want my weight loss to work for ME. I must have a clear head of when I'm truely needing to eat, or am I wanted to eat out of emotions.
I'm 6 months out today, and still there are clearly issues that need to be addressed.
Pre Op's please just remember that this is a journey and it is a long one for us SMO's. From all the weight we must lose to reach goal all the way to trying to figure out why we are emotional eaters.
Still Struggling with Feelings of a SMO'er~~~~~~~
Carmella
Nothing "set" the feelings off in particular. I was a little stressed at work and I have noticed that I've been fighting the urge to want to pick things up to eat and put it in my mouth without thinking. I guess this is the part where it really starts to get hard and make me think BEFORE I eat. So I'm trying to keep ahead of the game by keeping snacks in my desk that are good for me.
To add a happy ending to this post, I ended up driving past the McD's and heading to Wal Mart to pick up some pictures and mindlessly was walking around and ended up in the Plus size section and seen these jeans and picked them up and said, there is NOOOO way I'm getting these over my caboose!!!!! Well guess what, I tried them on and they fit.
THE BEST PART????? A SIZE 22
My point to all of this??? I have to deal with the head hunger immediatly, I must have "good" food on hand and make the personal decision as to how I want my weight loss to work for ME. I must have a clear head of when I'm truely needing to eat, or am I wanted to eat out of emotions.
I'm 6 months out today, and still there are clearly issues that need to be addressed.
Pre Op's please just remember that this is a journey and it is a long one for us SMO's. From all the weight we must lose to reach goal all the way to trying to figure out why we are emotional eaters.
Still Struggling with Feelings of a SMO'er~~~~~~~
Carmella 
Thanks for sharing that. I am pre op and worry that I will have such bad head hunger after surgery. I am now on diet #134 
and the head hunger is horrible. Its like I cant just sit and watch TV or just sit at the computer without wanting something in my mouth.
That fear of failing this surgery haunts me everyday but I try to keep the faith that I will succed.
Congrats on your weight loss and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
KAY 
hi carmella. what a great post. thank you for sharing your story and your success with all of us. i like your thinking, girl, on being prepared ahead of time. PPPPPR(prior planning prevents **** poor results)
six months is, indeed, the time when your appetite begins to come back in full force - according to my dr @ my six month appt. and trying to figure out the emotional eaters curse, to me that will be a lifelong challenge. it's what i grew up with and the oldest habits do tend to die the hardest. 
but this is thanksgiving. one of the many things for which i am thankful, carmella, are people such as yourself. open, sharing, caring, giving. i've found most of this board to be filled with such people and i'm thankful, on a daily basis, for locating my fellow SMO'ers. 
HAVE A GREAT TURKEY DAY.
hugs
dorthe
six months is, indeed, the time when your appetite begins to come back in full force - according to my dr @ my six month appt. and trying to figure out the emotional eaters curse, to me that will be a lifelong challenge. it's what i grew up with and the oldest habits do tend to die the hardest.
but this is thanksgiving. one of the many things for which i am thankful, carmella, are people such as yourself. open, sharing, caring, giving. i've found most of this board to be filled with such people and i'm thankful, on a daily basis, for locating my fellow SMO'ers.
HAVE A GREAT TURKEY DAY.
hugs
dorthe 
Carmella((((((((((BIG HUG)))))))))))
Thanks for being so brutally honest!! You just described the way I have been feeling. I just want to go through the "act" of eating. I fully understand the greasy sandwich in your hand feeling. For me, its donuts and coffee. I just want to stuff down as much as I can as fast as I can to numb myself too. Are we hopeless?
You are a strong,strong woman. I know I can learn soemthing from you!
Happy Thanksgiving!!
willby
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