Having Doubts

Hi everyone. Just wanted to log in and ask for prayers. For the past few days, I have been having MAJOR doubts about having the surgery. I did very well for the first week after surgery, but now the emotions in me are running wild. I am sooooooo bored with my Full Liquid Diet......I sooooo want to eat something with flavor.......will I ever be normal again? I have cried and cried for days now........I know this is probably normal, but it is soooooooo hard. My husband and kids are wonderful and supporting me...........I just feel like I've made a HORRIBLE mistake. Please pray that I get through this. Thanks much. Tina

I was where you are. I remember having huge second thoughts after a couple weeks on the full liquids. It's the hardest part of the diet, I think, so far. I remember writing to another group I'm a member of, what did I do to myself? I think it had to do with making the adjustment to not having food be my best friend. Unfortunately you can't really go back at this point. I know you can do this, and I bet things will start getting better soon, when you start seeing the pounds coming off. Linda Vicory

Thanks, Linda. I know I'll get through it....it's just hard right now. I'm an emotional wreck! When does the next phase of the diet occur?

Just think of the Benefits of ths surgery honey, in the long run you will be healthier and you will live a longer life. I know things look grim now but in time things will get better. I know I am preop and I am not on the losing side but I am here for your support. let me know if you need anyhting. I will be praying for you mindi

Thanks, Mindi. I appreciate your support!!!!!

HI Tina, I think I've heard everyone new say this. I didn't have RNY, but I even have thoughts of 'what did I do'. I too just wanted something with flavor, chew, crunch, whatever. I made some blended chili (Hormel) and it was really good. It looks fine blended, just looks like a tomato based sauce, but still tastes like chili. I thinned it out some with broth from a can of chicken noodle soup and then blended it with my Magic Bullet. It tasted really good and got me through 2 more days of the full liquids phase. It gets better. Give it another week or two. Like Linda said, it's too late to turn back, so figure out what you can to get by. I'm sure everyone will be here to offer suggestions and help you get through. Keep venting!!! Like I told someone on another list "Now, watch a month from now I'll be whining about eating too much again!!!" Are we ever happy with ourselves???, LOL. Tania

Thanks, Tania. I guess another thing is, I'm unsure of what things I can try. I would love to do the Chili thing, but don't know if I'm able yet. Also, canned tuna and canned chicken, etc.....not sure. I agree -- I don't think we are EVER happy!!! LOL! Thanks, again, Tania! Tina

Hi Tina, I can certainly understand your hesitation. I know it's scary to try new things unless it's on your 'list'. According to everything I've read and things posted on several boards, full liquids, by definition is anything you can thin and get through a straw. Of course don't use a straw, lol. But, that's what everyone goes by. By adding the 1/2cup or so of chicken broth and blending, the chili can be thinned down to any consistency. Also, the blending takes care of chunks so there are no pieces or large chuncks. It was a life-saver for me. The RNY is quite a bit different than the band, but I know I was not supposed to do canned meat until this week so, I can't imagine that you would be able to do it earlier. I'm just 1 week ahead of you. I just tried fish starting this last Friday. Take care, this part will be over soon. I was counting the days!!! Tania

Tina, did Dr. Clark perscirbe anti-depressants? I went thru St.V and I think all the surgeons their want you on them for at least the first three months after surgery. I was so happy to be losing rapidly I don't think they affected me but maybe they did. I've heard many with the same problem and most of them weren't taking them. The things that satisfied me most at that time were the flavored yogurts and instant mashed potatos and cottage cheese and applesauce. I never seem to get tired of them, even now they are my quick lunches or meals on the run. Hope you are feeling better soon. You didn't make a mistake.

Hi, Jan. I have been on anti-depressants for several years now. That's another reason I'm shocked I'm feeling this way. Right now, I'm living on mashed potatoes, cottage cheese, scrambled eggs, and applesauce. All of which I LOVE! I know I'll get through this phase.....just hard. Thanks for listening! Tina