Approved-"Normal" here I come??!

Opps I posted on the wrong board..Now I guess I am in the right place! Still trying to understand how posting works! I have never posted my own topic here BUT Today I have something to share with everyone!

Just got off the phone with the insurance company BCBS FED and I am APPROVED for the DS surgery!! I am crying…maybe this REALLY is going to happen!! Maybe I really will be “normal”! On second thought....naw...(after all what IS normal-sure isn’t dressing my pet *****hilla in an Irish hat -that’s for sure!)

BUT at least acceptable perhaps to the rest of the world!

 Last month was a bad one for me!…I was at a restaurant and a man in the table  next to us was staring at me-- sure made me uncomfortable I got up to go to the restroom and he LEANED WAY over in his seat away from me like I was too big to go by without touching him!! I was stunned.

 THEN I went to Kohl’s and wanted to look at a necklace and the sales gal told me it would be too small to fit MY neck! Took all the joy out of even trying it on THOUGH IT DID FIT!!

Last an acquaintance at church told me she wanted me to read a book about Thyroid problems because I should be able to LOSE more weight by myself and must have a medical problem to be this large! I was most hurt by that than any of the other situations…I told her yes it is a medical problem which I am seeking help for!

NOW I feel maybe I CAN be normal at some point! or at least not have people stare, point, laugh, 5 years old yelling "Mommy look at the big fat woman", (see my story  posts about that "darling?" child) Etc. I can't imagine a life where I would blend in with society buy something off the rack at a normal store and have it fit, eat without people looking at me. AND I will post my real picture and not be ashamed of how I look in a picture! But of course, surly people would prefer to look at my adorable, cute and very spoiled *****hilla (Charlie ***** rather than me anyway! 

 

Congratulations!

Congrats on your approval I honestly know how you feel we went to CiCis Pizza a while back against my better judgement. But anyways this man kep****ching me my dh said let it go. So i did til we were leaving i had to walk by him as we left and he leaned over sideways and said now that should give her enough room.. Oh no he didnt i walk to the table and said sir you know i could whip your a.. but im to much of a lady so ill leave you with this you see your beautiful wife and daughter He shook his head yes I said well they could look like me someday and how would you like it if they were treated  like you just did me and i walked away. We were getting in the vehicle and here he came running. I thought oh crap and started to kick my shoes off thinking it was on. He said mam i am so sorry i hurt you will you please forgive me i wasnt thinking about your feelings.. I had set an example for my boys number 1 (they wanted to kick the crap out of him). But one more member of society realized we are human beings with a little extra baggage. To this day though i dont go into a rest. and dont have my pic taken,my dh says you cant let 1 feeble minded fool take this from you. But i did. Im with you all the way girl ...all the way

Bless your heart...Thank you for sharing your story with me...I am always so amazed and often stunned by the ignorance of people.  You are obviously a BEAUTIFUL person to be able to handle yourself so eloquently and refined in the face of this person. YOU deserve a hand clap and all the support you can gain for your life! We are NOT defined by our looks but by our character and behaviors YOU are my hero!  Best wishes to you

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Congrats on your approval!

i skipped my 10 year high school reunion because of people like that. there's about 5 of them that i really did not want to see. two of them hate me merely because of my size. well, that and i'm smarter than them in biology. :D anyway, now that i'm having the surgery, i can't wait until 15 or 20 comes up. because i am going to look them straight in the eye while wearing a very flattering outfit and the whole nine yards, and tell them, "you know what. i maybe have been fat, but i can change that. you, (insert name here), will always be an (insert alternative word for donkey)." yeah, i can't wait for that day. keep up the faith. we'll be here with you along the way!

You GO GIRL!! We need to stick together! Congrats on YOUR upcomming surgery -may ALL your goals and dreams be realized.  Best wishes ps

Hi, People can be sooo cruel /ignorant/STUPID at times!!! I know sometimes things are said in total loving concern, and come across wrong/hurtful. I have gone thru much of what you've posted about, & it is wonderful to come out the other side with a healthy lifestyle & body!! Keep your eyes focused on your recovery, & you are going to do great! You go girl!!!!!!!!!!!! (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) Ellen

Thank you SOOO much for your encouragement and kind words. Best wishes to you also!  

I agree with Ellen, people are just plain rude some times. It really makes you question things. I grew up being moo'ed at and stuff til high school, then I became pretty popular and stuff. Then when I got into the work force especially when I worked in restaurants people could be cruel. I had really bad PCOS and had a doctor who I went to because I went 3 years without a cycle and stuff tell me that just bcause I worked in fast food didn't mean I needed to eat it. I didn't eat it. I took my lunch to work with me. I left his office crying because he convinced me my being fat was the sole reason that I had no cycle and stuff. Man I could go on and on with stuff people have said but I'll spare ya that. My DH's grandma took the cake though she tried telling me to just not eat anything or starve myself like those girls on tv and I could lose weight instead of surgery.. Umm yea sure thats healthy.