Tuesday

Hope you all didn't get as much iciness as Terre Haute has. Our schools are on a 2-hour delay because of it. That's nice for Mike and the kids, but I was supposed to work at the school this morning, so I will have to wait 2 hours to get in there, which means some kids will have to get rescheduled.  

I was pleased this morning to be back down into my weight comfort zone. It must have been water I was carrying yesterday. I know I'm a bit paranoid about it, but it really terrifies me to think of ever gaining my weight back again. Does anyone else feel this way? I have never, ever been this thin. I was never able to lose my weight before, and I have been heavy since 1st grade. So I'm really enjoying this, and I don't ever want to go back.  I am feeling a bit down this week. My angel-baby Lucy's birthday is a week from today. She would have been nine years old. It's wearing on me.  I hope other folks are having a good day.

Linda..I'm sorry you're feeling down. Lucy is a child in heaven now? I am sorry for your grief..it never really goes away does it? It is exciting to the thinnest you've ever been isn't it? I had my surgery 4 yrs ago and in the last 2 yrs I keep gaining and losing the same 25 lbs! I think maybe my body is trying to tell me that the heavier weight is where it's the happiest. That realization just came upon me this morning.. So that is something to think about.. I had people asking me if I was okay when I weighed less..I thought I looked good..LOL but as soon as that weight started creeping back on ..I would than get comments from the same  people on how healthy and happy I looked..hmmmm..that really made me stop and think..and boy,is it frustrating..wanting to be smaller..but also knowing that when you do get smaller you're going to look sickly again...sigh.. Have a good day.. Good morning to everyone!

Hi Linda, I am sorry for the feelings you are feeling about Lucy. I know that those feelings never go away but with time they do get a bit better. Not always a lot but I am happy for just a little bit better. I have to think that it is a good thing that I allow mysesf to feel the feelings because before I would just eat and that would help to make them go away for a while. Now I have to face them because I can't eat to make them disappear. That is a good thing in a way. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. I am sending you big hugs and lots of love too. Sometimes it just helps knowing that others understand where you are coming from.