Hi all, had a moment to peek at the board

Hi all, Hope here! I had a moment tonight (along with good internet connectivity at the hotel) and here I am! Peter is OK, but fighting a low fever and a cough today. With his white counts at the lowest, he 's in danger of infection, so they are monitoring him closely and giving him anti-biotics just-in-case. I'm struggling with using food when coping lately, and it's showing on the scale. I have tried the gym downstairs a couple of times, but I'm low on energy and fighting the urge to stay in bed every morning til it's too late to go downstairs. I could use some extra prayers in that area and knew you all would understand. I'm going to talk with the social worker  at the hospital to see if they can hook me up with some one to talk to, I'm fighting issues lately and having trouble sleeping, It's rough watching him go through all this and take care of our personal and business stuff too. With the camping season looming, it's really beginning to hit me how hard this is actually going to be. Plus I hate leaving him every night alone there in the hospital. OK, I vented, needed that, just to write it all out and not hear the usual 'patronising' (sp?) ' you'll be fine' and 'you're strong,  you can handle it' comments.  Facing a life-threatening illness of the love of my life is an emotional roller-coaster! Worst thing, not knowing if the treatments working and having to sit and wait in the hospital isolation room.  well, thanks for letting me vent. It's good to 'see' you all on the board. Thanks to the ladies I met for lunch earlier this month, it was a great get-away. Hope 

Hope, It was great meeting you, too! I had a blast! Please know that you and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers! I have never had to tackle what has been put on you and your loved ones shoulders, but can only imagine how tough it is and has been. That being said, I can only imagine how I would feel facing this with my husband. I would also be leaning towards food and other issues for stress related emotions, etc, I think that is a normal coping mechanism for us all. They didn't do surgery on our minds and even though we might not have had the same surgery, I understand. I do hope that you are able to get some help from speaking with the social worker and that you are able to find another alternative.  Please keep us posted as you can, and know that we are till saying prayers for all of you during this most difficult time. Hugz Dawn

Hi Hope, I have had you in my thoughts and prayers. We did have a delight time at lunch. I was so glad to meet you after all the updates Sherri has shared with us. Maybe we can togerther soon. I think I know where the bus stop is so I could come up see/ meet for lunch. God Bless, both you and Peter. Love Ya. Hugs & Blessings, Gail

Hope, You have mail! Sherri

I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through...that would be tough.  I will keep you and Peter in my thoughts and prayers.

Hope, I'm sorry I had to miss lunch the other day (got stuck in a meeting at work).  I would love to have met you.  I'm keeping you and Peter in my thoughts.   My dad and grandmother (his mother) were both diagnosed with cancer within a month of each other and went through chemo at the same time, so I can understand what you mean about being on pins & needles not knowing if the treatments are working and even if they are, can they really survive what is being done to them in the name of "treatment".  And it is so hard watching them go through it all and knowing there is nothing you can do to make it any easier for them.  I think it is great that you recognize that you need a little help right now and are willing to ask for it (from us and the social worker).  Sometimes asking for the help we need is harder than just suffering through whatever we are going through.  But, you have obviously learned some new habits since your wls and one of them is asking for the help and suport you need.  For that you can be proud.  I'll be thinking of you in the days and weeks to come and I hope I get the chance to meet you and Peter in person one day soon.

Hope, I loved meeting you!  I do wish we lived closer together because I think we would become great buddies.  You are such a beautiful person, inside and out.   Vent away Sweetie!  I can't relate to what you're going through but I can take a punch when needed.   Know you are loved and thought of often. Smooches, Jacqui

Hope, I do look forward in seeing soon and I agree with everything. Jacqui, said. God Bless Hugs & Blessing, Gail

Hope, you and Peter are in my prayers. May God put His healing and loving arms around your family and bring peace, acceptance and healing to you all. I will continue to pray for all of you.  You can always come on here and vent. That is what we are here for. That is what friends are for. We are always here for you anytine you need us.  I hope to meet you both soon. I am looking forward to it. Keep us posted on how Peter and yourself is doing and I am sending lots of love and big hugs to you.