Fruit Pizza Recipe

Okies....here is my recipe..... By the way, feel free to experiment with it however you want, but let all know how it turns out.  this was the first time I gad made it, so I will adapt mine a little more second time around. Also great to see everyone yesterday.  I am having a rough time with my emotions right now....and yesterday was a much needed break.  I am getting back up, brushing myself off, and starting a fresh new outlook.  At least I hope to!!!! Sweet as Sugar Cookie 1 cup butter, softened 1 cup Splenda Sugar Blend 2 large eggs 2 teaspoons vanilla extract 3 cups of flour 1 teaspoon baking powder 1/2 teaspoon salt Beat butter until creamy, gradually add Splenda.  Add eggs, one at a time, mixing well.  Stir in vanilla.....Combine flour, baking powder, and salt in a separate mixing bowl.  Gradually add flour mixture to the Splenda mixture.  Beat until mixed, but do not over mix.     Place dough in a bowl and cover, chill for one hour.........Preheat oven to 325.  Spray jelly roll pan(cookie sheet with sides) with cooking spray and press chilled dough to fill sheet.  I baked mine for about 15 to 20 minutes.....until edges just started to brown.  Cool completely. Topping... 8 oz. FF cream cheese 1/2 cup Splenda baking blend...will cut this down next time around 1 teaspoon of vanilla Assorted fresh fruits Mix cream cheese, splenda, and vanilla until smooth.....Spread on cooled sugar cookie and top with fruit!!!!  Enjoy!!!! Hope everyone will get to the next exchange.....and I guess I know what I will be bringing again.   Thanks for all the hugs....hope to get even more the time around. Also thanks for all the support people have given me.  I am really dealing with lots of feelings of failure right now.....need to learn to not compare myself to others!!!!! Love and Hugs, Holly

Holly, I totally understand! I fall into the numbers game so often. Looking at where others are at compared to me/time out of surgery/starting weight compared to mine and where we/I am at now- uugghh! I do understand. I even spoke with others yesterday about it, and they do it too! We all know that this is not what we should do but we do it anyway! I am trying to see the picture as being, I am healthier happier and moving more freely than I was 2 years ago and 150lbs. heavier. Although I realize that I still see that I am so far away from 150 lb  goal weight. My surgeon had actually told me once I was 211 lbs. that anything lost after that was a cotinued success! but I find that number hard to accept because that still seems so high. Sorry to ramble. I know that we are all struggling or have at least or maybe will in the future- that is what we are here for is to lean on, vent, cry and yet help support and understand this crazy journey that we are taking! I am here if you need to talk! You can PM me if you need to- I have received others, and know that you and I are not alone! Hang in there! Hugz Dawn Thanks for the recipe!

Dawn, Thanks so much for all your kind words.....yesterday was a horrible day.....and I ate very badly...had no motivation to do anything.  Now I am so upset with myself....tomorrow is my 11 month mark, and I have got to get my S**T together......just finished my protein drink....and put the oreos in the trash....to bad I ate way to many of them yesterday.....today is going to be a cleansing day of mostly liquids....I just hope I can keep the midset to make it through the day.  My Hubby is working in Indy getting ready for the Lineman Rodeo....so I never sleep well when he is gone.....but one thing at a time I guess.  I have my goal of 100 pounds lost by May 8th....in my sight...just feels like I have taken a side road right now!!!!  I know what I need to do.....depression sucks!!!!!   Ok, off to do my morning crap around the house....hope to talk again very soon!!!!! Love and Hugs, Holly

Holly and Dawn, Speaking from a Preop's view. You two look fabulous. I was 300 pounds 4 years ago and couldn't walk up a flight of stairs. Being 225 right now, I still have a ways to go and will start my journey (actually continue) next week. I know I will have to fight food addiction for the rest of my like and I , too suffer from very drastic depression and take 100 grams of zoloft a day for it. To see you at the point you are at makes me tickled pink and want my surgery even sooner. I can't wait to look like you and be able to bend down or walk and feel good. I know its hard but keep chuggin' on and know we are here for you.  Holly, girl you look absolutely fabulous!!! I can't wait to wear cute clothes like you and look awesome. COngratulations. Dawn, You are such a sweetheart, Thank you so much for everything you do. I can't wait to have you as my angel. Misty also offered. I will take you both up on it. First one to call gets the scoop. LOL Have a good one. DO NOT BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF!YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED SO MUCH MORE THAN MOST PEOPLE HAVE IN THEIR WHOLE LIVES!

Shanna, Thanks- You are almost starting your wls part ofyour journey, but you have accompished alot already! Being 225 now and 300 a year ago without surgery yet is an amazing accomplishment- shoot I am sitting at 180ish now so in no time you will have that passed. I am happy for ya and know that I will keep on supporting ya as you need it! It is an amazing journey! Keep focused, you can do it! Hugz Dawn

Shanna, Thanks......your words mean a lot.  Just wish I could get my brain to absorb what everyone TELLS me.  I saw someone in Wal Mart yesterday, and she did not recognize me.  That should make me feel on cloud 9....but all I can think is, that I have fallen off course, and am clawing my way back.....I am so afraid if I miss my goal at my 1 year mark that it will really get to me.  Right now I want to go back to bed and pull the covers over my head....World...just go away!!!!! You are having your surgery on my Brother's Birthday.......so now two very special people in my life have that day in common......I will make sure to call and check on you!!!!! Hope you are getting your bags packed, and ready to buckle in for a great ride!!!!! Love and Hugs, Holly

Holly, Thanks so much for posting this recipe. I absolutley loved it!!  I will be making it for the Pampered Chef party so I really hope you can make it.  I'm going to take your advice and "work" it a bit to see what "new" version I can come up with. It was really fun meeting you and so many other new folks yesterday.  The clothing exchanges are always so successful and helpful for so many people.  It's so much easier for me to post to people once I've met them and know who I'm talking to. For most of us, weight loss has been a numbers game our whole lives. Just because we are finally winning the game, it doesn't mean the rules have changed. None of us have to look very far to find someone who has lost more, or lost faster, or looks better than we do. We just have to focus on what we want for ourselves and not worry about what someone else has or is doing. Decide what you want and then set sites straight ahead. If we are looking forward we can't see what is going on next to us or behind us. We need to accept that it doesn't really matter anyway. I am me, you are you and they are they. For most of us it's probably pretty hard to learn the "I" game but that's exactly what we need to do.  Start thinking in terms of "I" when it comes to your journey and you'll see just what you have accomplished and can be proud of it. Please feel free to call or pm me any time. I've been there and some days I still am. See you Saturday I hope.

Brenda... I hope to also see you on Saturday.....if something comes up and I cannot make the trip...can I still place an outside order? As you have probably read...yesterday was horrible for me.... The emotional side of WLS is so much tougher than what I thought it would be.   Some days are great and others just plain suck!!!!!   I am trying to get myself back on track and into the right frame of mind again. I have gone back to journaling everyday....and hope this helps me. I am so upset with myself....I really should have opened up to people on Saturday, instead of putting on a fake face and acting like all was peachy.....but I did not want to look like a failure.  I guess I need more help than I want to admit.....I have a very hard time asking for help...... I am slowly making changes in my life to put "I" first......and some peole just don't understand.....but lots have never had a weight issue, so they just don't understand!!!! You are such an inspiration to me....you look fab!!!!!  And you crack my S**T up......I say just what I mean and normally don't sugar coat anything!!!!! Okies.....I am off to get busy with my day....will talk again very soon!!!!! Love and Hugs, Holly

Holly, Thanks for the recipe.  I really enjoyed meeting you on Sat.  You were a great inspiration to me although you wouldn't have known it.  You looked great.  Obviously outward appearance is important but I felt drawn to your inner beauty.  I know where you are coming from.  It takes soooooooo long for our head to catch up with our bodies.  I keep thinking, I am the same person that I was 115 lbs ago.  But I don't look the same.  I think we all want our WLS to be the answer to all of our problems,  not just our weight.  Remember that when you are at your lowest the only way to look is up.

Thx.....I have just decide that I am going to start posting more, instead of just lurking.....coming on Saturday was just what I needed....to get closer to others in the same boat as me. Everytime I have a down moment, I am going to come post to one of you lucky people...so watch out, there will probably be lots of posts from me!!!!! I need a swift kick in the A**!!!!! I would love to host a get together sometime.....just not sure most would want to drive North..... Love and Hugs, Holly PS.  Even though I see my changes in the mirror.....I still feel fat and ugly.....Wish I could quit beating myself up!!!!!