Happy Saturday!

I think if me, you and others who post online anywhere adopt the Dr.s oath "DO NO Harm" people would get along better.. I said me too because it is so easy to post something without looking back at it to make sure you KNOW what you said..You (me too) must always remember that everyone online has a heart that can be broken.. words can not be taken back once spoken or even worse typed is like a nail in the fense.. you can appologize but the nail hole is still there...we (humans) have the ability to cause eachother such pain... A side effect to obesity is sensitivity.. sometimes I think that is worse than the bad knees..We tend to be very sensitive.. oh we can say "If you don't like me tough" I am me and that is the way I am..."  It's a cover...a protective shield trying to soften the blows that come to each of us.. Yep, I have lost 100 pounds but I look in the mirror and I still see them.. because they haven't been erased from my heart or memory yet..Life is tough we are here to support eachother and help eachother make it thru..When I find myself not making a positive impact on someones life... I step back from them so they can get a breather from me.. I have screwed up before and I will screw up again because I am human but I learn more and more every time.. WWJD  never hurt anyone Linda Kay

Linda, never a truer word has ever been spoken or typed for that matter. I can totally relate to every word that you have said. Thank you so much for this. I send you big hugs and lots of love.

Okaay..I don't get on here very much so I'm slow to getting here to reply but I don't need to say much because you got a lot of great response and support..yea!! Plus I talk to you via email anyway..and you never mentioned feeling this way..shame on you! LOL Linda..you are totally fine and honestly I view you as a strong person...and I actually do remember you being on the message boards before in preparation for getting approved..than to get denied..I would be crushed..I don't know if  I would have had the strength to hang in there and keep trying like you have. I admire that! Man..if YOU give off negative vibes..LORD..makes me wonder what I give off??? LOL Negative tremors..earthquakes?? LOL You're fine..in the whole big picture..you're a keeper! LOL

Linda, As you know from my post as well as our conversation on the pone, depression isn't fun! I have it and have been dealing with issues from it for a while now! on't be afraid to have it dealt with and checked to see if it is a possibilty! I wish you well and hope that you are able to find the answers to your needs as well as wish you continued hope in reaching yourwls dreams! Hugz Dawn

Thanks Dawn, I'm taking a break though I do get email notice when someone replise to my post. I appreciate your kindness. I keep putting it off but, I know I have to be more positive and with depression.. well sometimes it IS hard, but I am going to call someone Monday and see if I can get in and talk.  I am glad that there are sensible people like yourself who can talk about new ideas without getting all fussy pants about it because life is too precious and too short to be that way and I have too many thngs going on to add to it a hen fight.  Do you know of anyone local since you are from here who is good? Please feel free to contact me about it at [email protected] since I really am trying for a break for this board.  Again thanks for being a dear.

You are a wonderful person no matter what you weigh..........  Do you judge people by how much they weigh.  I didn't think so.  I have lost over 100lbs but I am still the same person I was before.  The only difference is that I am smaller.  I just met you at the clothing exchange and immediately felt a connection.  You are struggling.  It is ok to ask for help whether it is medication or just a shoulder to cry on.  God didn't put us on earth to go through things alone.  That is why he created Adam and Eve  It is ok to be bitter sometimes,  just don't let that describe you as a person.  You are beautiful inside and out.  I know that your day will come and we will all rejoice with you as we will all cry with you when you are so upset.  You have apologized for the way you have treated some people,  now it is time to move on.  God has a plan for you... believe that with all your heart and you will be ok.   

Thank you for recognizing that and thank you for the honey from your lips. I am working on producing more as I don't want the engative to describe me and I am regretful some feel it does but I'm a work in progress and God is using this whole thing to show me that and show me I need to do a little better, but also showing me the good in me. I am a work in progress and have known it for a while. LOL Some folks need more help from others with getting around and some of us can get around but need help with being more positive. This is all very healing to me.  I too felt an instant connection. I almost didn't go to this becaue I did have plans to go with someone and then she asked for another ride because I had been out of town and she felt unsure about whether I was still picking her up and it bummed me out... but then I remembered that each of us has insecurities and she was just nervous and that was ok. This is where I showed grace which I do try to have for others when I feel let down and why I expect it from others when I mess up. So I asked my husband to go and he didn't want to as he thought it was all women and shopping. LOL But he dropped me off and picked me up that sweeety! And I was telling my husband what a good time I did have and how much I loved meeting you and others that I had seen online but never met in person and how I felt a connection with you and some of these others and was sad some I wanted to meet couldn't make it. I had enjoyed sitting next to Robyn and talking with her and Dawn and Gail and Ellen was so kind to me as well as Shanna which were all right there at my table. But as I say there were others too I had no clue about in person and really liked a lot.  But with you I could not believe how vibrant you were in your blue and pretty glasses with green on the side  (it looked green if I'm not color blind). I thought Wow that girl is beautiful and I realized when you said who you were I had already met online and bonded even more with meeting you. This is what I loved about the swap and it does outshine anything else.

I am in Indy often as I work for the State.  Maybe we can re-connect sometime again soon.  Would love to get together for a diet coke or something.  Diet coke is the one vice that I cannot or should I say am not willing to give up.  I LOVE IT.  Anyway,  talk with you soon.  You already sound a bit more positive.