I'm home...but what did I get myself into??

I'm glad to hear that your surgery went well. I know the feeling of of thinking what did I do to myself, I of course rememeber very vividly the first time they got me up when I was still in ICU and scream what the *!@& did I do to myself, honestly there was way more then that one little 4 letter word in that little sentence, lol, but i was trying to make it a little cleaner  It took me a few months to really get over that. Your not a lone though even if your husband isn't supporting you like you thought, you have this board and people on here are very willing to give you the support when you need it. I dont really post very often but I do come on here and read. In the beginning after my surgery and was so down about cuz I was so sick all the time, I couldn't even eat what I was suppose to and ended up with dehydration, and and ulcer by the first month, I still came on here although I would sit here and read the encourging words they would give to the people getting ready to have thier surgeries and I would wonder why are they doing that this is just a horrible way to go. It does get better and I promise after awhile you will look back and think you are so happy you did this for yourself.  I know now that if I had to do it all over again I would diffently do it again and I even had my open and part of my liver removed and i still know in my hear that I would do it over again. You will have your days and then you have the good days and eventually all those bad days will go away and you will be happy about it all.  Actually I'm 9 months out and just the other day I was getting some of my old clothes out from last summer cuz i had a friend that needed some clothes and I put a pair of my shorts on for the first time after surgery and i was so wowwed (i'm sure thats not spelled right lol) by how I could probably of almost gotten another person in there with me.  I dont see myself as being smaller but that was a great eye opener that I really have done it.  You will be fine, honey and when you get to have those wonderful wow moments you will be glad this all happened. Just keep your chin up and think positive. Come here for anything you need and there is always somebody that is willing to help you out.

Thanks everyone for your replies.  I am feeling a little better today than I was yesterday.  Still working hard to get all the fluids and protein in and I haven't managed to get everything in yet, but I hope today will be different.  It's a full time job just sipping and taking the medicines!  I am hopeful that each day will get better.  Thanks again, Melissa

Hi there, I am so glad to see you posting here. I haven't come here very often lately but have really been wondering about you. Hopefully from now on everyday will be better for you.  It's not all fun and games but it will be well worth it I promise.  It was so good to see you at JET's birthday party hope we can get together again soon. Love,  Carolyn

Was good to know Melissa would have you in her corner too... A mother in law is to be tolorated.... but a friend lasts forever...With me Melissa has seen the good the bad and the ugly... getting outside information and support is better. Linda Kay