getting scoped

Michelle, I just saw the post from yesterday. Hope things went well for you, and that you won't have to have any more scopes.  Take care and let me know how things went! When are you all coming down again?  I didn't get to speak to Tony, but I did leave a message at the shop for him about your DH.  Hopefully that will help out!

Michelle,    Dear one,I had posted about my  dark journey lately, on here & in my profile, if you want to read it. I lost both my parents 17 days apart( talk about a broken heart),my SIL has ovarian cancer & is slowly dying now, have had numerous family members/friends die of cancer & other diseases , just had a young man who grew up with my girls kill himself, and more- so I DO KNOW YOUR PAIN. I was/ am coming to you with a heart of compassion  and have learned life will hand you all kinds of sorrow, but ONLY God can get you thru it! The love we recieve form others is God's arms wrapped around us. I wish I lived closer to you so I could wrap my arms around you now. Hon, I don't  know  your decisions to have the surgery ~ I  don't know your reasons, your  health, your  pre-opt phy. eval,etc. but I hear your cry for help.When my parents died, I felt hopeless, again when  I was refused surgery the first time, when I realized where my distructive behaviors stemed from, & so much more I sought professional help to get me thru my pain, anger, depression and frustrations. I recently did the same thing when I found myslef going thru it again. I  found that talking to someone that is skilled  in these fields helped so much.  I hope you will feel free to email me, or seek the help you need. Perhaps you might call your Surgeon/Pcp and let them know how you are feeling? Just know I care about you.

I would like to thank all of you who have answered my posting. All of the people here at OH have been terrific and very supportive for which I am so grateful! I know that everyone has experienced some of what I am going through. The reasons that I decided to have this surgery was because of my health. Some of the things that are wrong are degenerative disc and joint diease. I am hoping that when I loose all the weight that I want I can walk better. Having always been over weight has taken it toll on my body, which I am sure that you and others can understand! As far as my cry for help I am totally frustrated with life in general. Seems everything that myself and my husband do has been the wrong thing to do. I am getting upset with him and the decisions that he has made, as they all seem to be the wrong ones these days! With him being laid off it seems like he just doesn't try very hard to find any jobs and I can't work right now! The creditors have now started calling for their money and he has been dragging his feet on taking money out of his 401 K to do what we have decided to do. We bought a small car to save gas and the money to buy it and there is something wrong with it. SO you know how you feel when things just pile up and there is nothing you can do about them. Feeling like venting with no one to vent with makes it difficult and living life seems to be more difficult. I would like to thank you for all your good thoughts and wish you would keep them up if you would? I would also like to thank others on this site because they have helped me so much and I love them for it! Well off of my soap box for now and thank you all so much! Love Ya! Michelle

Good Morning Michelle, I totally understand where you are at right now.....sometimes life has a way of wearing us all down. :o) We have been going thru a huge financial transition as my hubby has not worked in 11 months. Thanks goodness he has his disability pension and I have a great job as it helps but there is still barely enough to pay the bills let alone the gas at these high prices...sheesh! I find it helpful to take it one day at a time and somedays I even split that up into half days...lol as long as you make it day by day try not to worry about tomorrow. I look back now and wonder how we made it this far as well as we have but by the grace of God we get thru it. I trust God to supply my needs and when it is tough like this I see his handiwork coming thru.  I try to look at the up side that we are all basically healthy and we have lots of love in our life and it is a good thing. Keep your chin up and I will continue to keep your in my prayers!  HUGS! Marianne