Wednesday

Good Morning, I guess if thats what it is.

I had my first iron infusion yesterday and instead of getting the burst of energy and feeling good and stuff like so many talk about, I have ended up with nasty flu like aches and pains. I just hurt. EVERYWHERE. Especially my head and I've never had headaches like this except for in my sinuses and this is just everywhere. I have hardly been able to sleep because I can't get comfortable. I've taken everything medication wise and nothing. Rich tried to give me a back rub last night to try and help and to be honest it hurt more than it helped. They say it could last for a few days which is no fun. I was kind of not expecting this so I called yesterday to ask if it was normal and it is for some people. FUN.

Now it's  almost 8 a.m. Wednesday morning and I'd like to say I feel better but truthfully I feel just as bad. It's wore off some but I've hardly been able to rest because I ache so bad. I have a high pain tolerance too. Atleast with my surgeries the pain was centered around incisions or mostly in the same spots. This is just achy. :( I am whiney and moody anyways and I just want to cry. I've taking meds with no results. I'm already so depressed that I cry over everything anyways (I do have a therapist appointment today) and I'm just blah. I can see today will probably be a crying session. I made it through my first without doing so but I can't even think about anything without crying.

The steroids helped in some aspect though, it made me have an appetite yesterday I actually got 4 small couple ounce meals in (2 were solid) and while I heaved and felt nauseated I actually kept them down without medication. I think it's because I only tried a little bit though. I just pray I don't gain weight with it. I'm struggling so bad with that right now my body doesn't want to lose because I can't eat enough and it's actually started gaining. :(  It's atleast still the same as last night and I had lost 5 of the 10 lbs I mysteriously picked up. Hopefully with my cycle coming and going soon that other 5 lbs will disappear.


I'm just soo exhausted and I don't even know what to do anymore. I haven't been posting as much lately on the daily threads because I don't have a lot of positive to add at this point and I don't wanna be a downer but I really needed to get this out. I hope it doesn't bother you guys.

Hang in there Misty and dont give up.  It will get better.  I will keep you in my prayers.

We all love you, Misty!!!  Hang in there!  It is going to be better, I promise!! When it seems the darkest, it is always right before the dawn!!!  It does get better!!! I am living proof of that!

hi everyone.  i am sitting here while my kids are working on istep... the good thing is i am getting time to start getting a few things together for when i am off with the surgery... how long did everyone take off work when they had it.  and i didnt know how long after the surgery do you go back to a checkup?  i only have 16 days left, and am still super excited but scared too!!  i have to call up to get my class and per-op test scheduled!!
did any of your husbands freak out when you were getting ready to have surgery?  all of the sudden (and my husband and i talked about this for a long time before i started trying to get it, then i had to try for a year, so it has been a while)  anyway.. he is like "i'm going on a diet today" and "i dont want you to leave me when you loose weight"  or " i want to have surgery too".  i mean he is overweight, but he is very strong, and has no medical problems what-so-ever.  he doesnt even have a lot of family history with disease and things.  i want him to happy for me, and not be worried... and i dont want him being all "yuck" and "im doing this and im doing that"  any suggestions????
oh and does anyone watch biggest loser?  i love that show, but at the same time it make me very depressed.  i am bigger than any of the girls that have ever been on ther... i am like really??? you cant find a girl who is over 250lbs to be on the show?? sign me up!!!  i wanted to be on there!!!
ok sorry to vent a little i am just going thru a ton of emotions right now... sorry!
cassie

Oh yeah, my hubby did everything you could imagine, and then some that you couldn't, right before surgery.  It has been a rough 9 months.  It just takes lots of prayers and faith and strength.  You will do just fine tho when you have surgery.  Take care! 
My daughter isn't wanting to take her I-Step tests today, but oh well.....I have one in 2nd and one in 3rd. LOL

Hi Everyone!
  I can't believe it is Wed. already!This week is a busy one for me- good thing- maybe I'll keep out of trouble- NOT~hee~hee!!!
   I am working the rest of the week at my girlfriends shop, so I will check in when I can. Her daughter is getting married Sat. plus we have our annual Tour of Homes. I am hostessing one of the homes, then going to the the raffle & meet up with a bunch of girls afterwards at Arni's for supper- full week/ day! I love it tho. I have missed being at work something fierce, I didn't realize how much I enjoyed it till now! Oh well, I have plenty of things to do to keep busy as a bee!!!

  Going to take care of the  twin grandbabies today for a while to let Amy go do some testing. She hopefully has a night job starting in Oct. They need her to work- no gas for heat turned on right now & we don't have an extra $600. to help. Plus, we gotta stop sometime, and decided a few yrs. back that since we "retired" the income has been cut in 3/4 so we just get by month to month ourselves. It will be a few more yrs. before I get SS.- if it is around by then! One thing about being self-employed, I didn't think of my future, just everyone elses. Oh well, atleast others will/were blessed. God is looking out for me!
  Shanna & Cindy- I miss our "girltime"- go for coffee for me- & let me know what the mtg. was on, ok?!Tell Floyd & Brenda "HI" for me!!
 Misty- hope you feel better today. Depression,  & fearof change is never easy- you have come so far already. Try not to push yourself so hard. The weight is only part of our issues, I commend you for working on dealing with the underlying problems. I am here for you!
  LaChelle- sounds like a good meal to me! I think Dh is going to get chili, since tonight is BBS. & I can do it in a crockpot. oh, I know all about migraines!That is what my recliner is for, if I get to hurting too bad, I go there and put a cold cloth on my eyes. Hope he feels better & you get some much needed rest today!
 Linda V. Oh boy, isn't it fun to see our lil girls twirl around ??!! I am thinking of you. Cars, gotta live with those darn expenses,huh?!Just had my tires aligned then they are fixing the highway & I hit a chuckhole & now it is worse than ever- geeze!
  Sherri- thankfully he passed you on!. I hope they will be of more help for you. I know they are really dedicated to finding a solution there. Get that darn leg healed up girl! Tell Dr. B it's time to get~ r~ done!!! Call me-!
  Gail, hon, hope you are feeling better! We need some girltime- give me al call!!!
  Jenny- don't work too hard today! You have done an amazing job girl!
  Holly, Hi there lil sister! How are you doing today? We had such fun getting to know you better sat. Penny said she felt like you & Shanna were her long lost sisters!
 Vicki, had a great time Sat. with you- I know what you mean, I need winter clothes bad! I still think you ought to color your hair a dark auburn!!
  Brenda R.- if you are out there lurking- get yourself back on here- I miss you bad!!!! We all love you & are thinking of you!!!!Sending up prayers to our Haevenly Father that he will heal, protect, and strengthen you today.
  To all of you newbies- pre-opts, post-opts, take it all one day ,one step at a time!You will succeed, and it does get easier! Never, never give up, let go, or feel like you are a failure- it isn't an option!!!!!! " If God be for us, who (or what) can be against us"? NOTHING~NO !! 

Keeping the faith with you all,
 

Good Afternoon All,
My M.O.M. Wilma is coming over in a few so I been cleaning. Not much else going on. I hope to get some walking in today its so nice out. Going to get my hair cut and can't make my mind on the color. I really like this brownish red but so many   want my bright red back , all they have to do is look at my bright red roots !!!!
Love to all,
Special Prayers and Healthy Wishes to those in need.
Hugs & Blessings, Gail

Ellen you are so right I need some "Girls Just Want to Have Fun Time" hopefully soon.
Misty sorry I missed your call.    To all

Gosh!  It is Wednesday already!  Where has this week gone?  I am as busy as ever.  School is going well, but the paperwork is beginning to pile up.  I am glad when everyone in my room leaves by 3:15 and I can actually get something done.  I have stayed the last two nights until 4:30 and have been back in by 7:30 just trying to catch up.  I am almost there.  At least you could see the top of my desk by the time I left tonight.  (Well, at least small sections of it, which is better than it was) 
I, too, am worried about Brenda.  Thanks, Gail, for calling her.  She is missed.  I sure hope everything is ok. 
Misty, girl you have really been in my prayers.  I know you are depressed and was so glad to hear that you had an appointment today, but then to get the flu on top of it all.  Hang in there.  Prayers are coming your way.
Sherri- so sorry to hear that you have to wait so long for an appt with a new gastro guy.  I sure hope someone cancels their appt. soon and you can get in.  You need a REAL specialist to figure this out. 
Ellen- sounds like you are busier now than when you worked.  How do you fit it all in?

I am now a little over two weeks without smokes.  I am so proud of myself, but I am not proud of the few pounds that I have managed to put on.  I am not really hungry but still a little edgy.  Maybe I will call the Stop Smoking help line to see if they have any ideas.  My daughter cut down to only 1/2 a week for work so she could devote more time to her school work.  That seems to have helped her mental outlook tremendously.  Thank God.  Emily has been much better this week with her mom gone too.  Thank heavens!  She was a pill last week. 
Hope the newbies are doing ok.  Sipping and walking.  Well, I need to scoot.  Time to cook dinner.  Have no idea what that will be, but Emily is hungry.  Hugs to all.  Karen