if you need a friend just call me

well just write really lol i could do with new friends, im on my own all the time and it gets very boring. i live in the uk and if you ever wanna chat just email me. hope to chat with anyone sometime regards trevor ellis

Hi Trevor, I live in a small farming community about 30 miles from the state capital of Ca. It is really hot in the summer but this time of year is getting nice and cold. I have lived in California all my life and have a cat named Snowy. She is a siamese and very sweet most of the time. Anyway can't stay on here much longer so will chat later. Peggy

hi peggy thanks for writing, i am very sorry it has taken me so long to reply, i havent logged onto this site for quite a while, so i hope you dont mind the delay. hows things? im fine and looking foward to 2006, i got to get my life back on track. i lost my job back in april and then i got a scare that i would lose my mum who was very ill but thank god she was well enough to go back home. i saw her for the 1st time in ages last week and we chatted and kissed and hugged it was hard to not cry, i love her more than she knows. im also trying to cope with having essential tremor which is like a constant feeling of anxiety which makes doing everyday things difficult cause i get severe panic attacks. i am trying whatever i can to find a way to cope from day to day with this anxiety. naturally i feel depressed from time to time and i never stop praying to god for support. im also overweight, trying to lose some but its hard lol. well i do hope to hear from you again peggy all the best for 2006!! love from trevor

hi Trevor! just joined this message board and wanted to say hello

hi cee cee! how are you? best wishes for the new year ok and please write again love from trevor xxx

Hi trevor! I live in the US in florida. everyone needs friends, I know I do REALLY badly! I have spent the last 3 years caring for my sister who was very sick. Diabetes, & kidney failure took her from us 09/28/05. I learn each day how to work thru my greif. I am trying to start a new life. See I havent dated in a REALLY long time. 1st because, I just didnt find anyone interested in a woman of my size. Then when my sister became ill, I didnt even have time for friendships. So now, its just me and my other sister living together. She is mentally challenged but very high functioning and loving. But its not the same. My other sis and I had lived together for 30 years. Both of us were fat, so neither of us felt comfortable dating. So we were bestfriends and partners of sort (no sex of course) Now that I am starting over, I am trying to learn to be comfortable in my body. So I just learned this week about B.B.W. My therypist told me of it, so I Googled it. WOW, I never knew there were so many ppl interested in relationship will Big Beautiful Women! There were over 22,000 hits for B.B.W., now 1/2 of those were porn sites, but that still leaves 11,000. LOL! I am really scared of dating. I am still sooo uncomfortable with my body. (5'9" 392lbs) But I'm TRYING TO LEARN to meet new ppl (very carefully). Anyway, You said "if anyone needs new friends" so I thought you would be a good person to talk or chat to. Look foward to hearing from you. Maureen Rath

hi maureen, first of all i am so happy you reached out to me my best wishes to your dear sister. i have always liked women and it doesnt bother me if a woman puts on weight if anything i think a womans natural beauty is enhanced with weight gain. of course women/men have to be careful we dont allow our weight to get too high but again that wouldnt stop me from loving you if we were a couple. i wont judge you by your size, you sound like a lovely woman' and i feel honoured that you have reached out to me. please write whenever you like, i will always answer you and you can ask any questions ok im approachable and down to earth look forward to hearing from you trevor ellis