The countdown begins

I drank my awful magnesium citrate about  a few hours ago. Two days of clear liquids and then it's time for my surgery.

I'm having a lap RNY on Monday morning at 9:30 at the U of MN.

I am very excited but I'm kind of freaking out right now. I fear being put under the most.

Also, for some reason, I feel so alone right now. I wish I could have gotten out to coffee this morning. I feel like none of my friends really understand what I'm going through. I guess I don't expect them to. But that's why I have you all, right?

I did go have a massage last night to try to relax myself for the weekend. 

I'm trying to keep busy and keep my mind off of things.

Hope you all are having a good weekend.
Anna

Anna-

Congrats on taking care of yourself this weekend.  The massage was a fantastic idea.  I know what you mean about friends not understanding your feelings right now, I also have gone through *and am still going through) that too. 

We missed you this morning at coffee, but are saving a seat for you on the loser's bend on Monday!  You are so ready for your surgery!!

Looking forward to talking with you soon!

Reenie

Hi Anna!

We did miss you at coffee, but we were definitely thinking of you and remembering that your surgery is Monday.  I am so happy that your journey on the losers bench is about to begin.  How nice of you to get a massage and just take time out for yourself before your big day.  I am with you and Reenie...kind of feel alone.  I have not told anyone about me wanting to take this step (only my boss and close family), so my OH friends are very important and have a HUGE impact on me.

Let me know if there is anything I can do!  I will send you a message before you go into surgery!

Stephanie

Hi Anna, so very sorry you're feeling so alone right now.  Am so glad you're on the boards this soon--I hadn't gotten on til over four months out, so my psychologist definitely got her bucks worth!     Keep focused on the end result--Monday will be here before 'ya know it!  Making room for you on the fabulous losers' bench! Hugs, best wishes, and a prayer for your pre-surg. sanity!  Patti

P.S. Here's some ideas  to fill time and 'lonesome' space:  journal your feelings, make a list of all the positive scenarios post-surgery, find some interesting reading, don'****ch TV (food porn), but rent/go to movies, when you're sure and safely leave the go walk the crazy shopping centers--guaranteed that you'll get home and appreciate solitude!  Go to nursing homes, visit any elderly who will so appreciate the company.  Hey, it's a small sampling of ideas....and before you know it, you'll be coming out of surgery!  Breathe, breathe, breathe!

Anna.............I sure will be thinking of you and will be there in spirit.  All will be good and I think you'll surprised at how the whole thing goes.

Still very excited for you!

sharon

 

Wishing you all the best with your up coming surgery!!.

Try to keep yourself busy and will help the time pass.

Best wishes.

Anna-- will be thinking of you Monday!  Who's your surgeon?

I had my surgery at the U of M-- they will take very good care of you.  Don't fret about being put under-- if you're really nervous, ask for something in the pre-op area before you are taken into the OR.  Once there, they'll give you a little something in your IV, and have you breathe some 'happy medicine' in the oxygen- and next thing you know, it will all be over!

My surgeon is Dr. Leslie. For some reason, the system won't allow me to add him as my surgeon. He doesn't even show up on the list for me and OH says he's on the list.

Good idea, I may need to ask for something before hand.

Thanks!

Anna, you'll do great! 

My only suggestion for Monday morning is if you do request something to calm you down once there, and you're not feeling any, or enough effects, ask for something else.  If I would have advocated for myself better on Wednesday, requesting something stronger to calm my nerves, I'm quite certain I'd be on the other side of the bench today, rather than waiting on a new surgery date.