The Journey - Lots of downs and a few recent ups...

As I am sitting here thinking about the bitter cold - I couldn't help but think back to a day a mere four and a half years ago when i was about to undergo the most life changing event of my life.

315 Pounds. I had no idea I was so fat.  I know that sounds stupid but I didn't see it.  Only now do I look back and cringe.  I got down to 185.  Still technically obese but my God  - what a change!  Loved the new me.

So now - up to 209...  Not happy about that, but for the first time in  a while I am no longer mourning my losses.  I have refocused on food, drink ( you know the right kinds) and exercise and I feel so much better. 

Am I where I want to be?  no - but I read these posts - and it helps.

So even though I rarely post just know this.  The journey doesn't end once the incisions are closed.  Its a forever battle - and I don't plan to lose this time.

Love you!

Hey Jen!  Did I hear you're planning to join us at the Lodge again?  YAY!!! 

It's so awesome to hear from people further out - reassurance that our tools are ours to have and to use for the rest of our lives.  Even if we lose focus and regain, it's not the end - it's NEVER the end!  We'll fight fat the rest of our lives, but with a tool that will HELP US!

Can't wait to see you again...

I am coming!! I can't wait to see people again.  You all inspired me so much last time so I have no doubt it will happen again ;)

I tell you - the last few years I really stopped paying attention to what I was doing - and the scale proves it.  But I also know its not to late to retrain my brain and slow down and think about what I am doing to myself. 

Yea this cold is just ridiculous    Good for you reposting and recognizing you need to get back at it. You can do it!!

What a wonderful post! Congratulations on taking a huge step towards refocusing yourself! You will no doubt get back on track and hit your goals along the way with your revised attitude! Stay committed to yourself & your tool!

I relate to your journey. I'm 2 1/2 years out and have had some gain.  I went back to PNC support group tonight.  I need to connect  and be accountable again.  

The format has changed at PNC. I was/am skepticle, but will give it a chance.  
You're right---it's a JOURNEY, not just a trip.

Best to you!
Connie B. 

 I was at the meeting tonight too.  (I just made a separate post about it.)  What are the changes of which you speak?  As a newcomer, I guess it won't make much of a difference to me.    I don't know if you remember me.  I'm the one only a week and a half out.  I can't seem to place you from your pic...  I am looking forward to hopefully meeting people here online and in the group.

Kristen

I sent you a pm.
C.

I heard about the changes to.  I only went to one meeting - between where I live and work its tough...

But don't ever give up.  I think that's what brought me back to this website again.  Its so awesome to have people - some who you know and some you don't, who are so willing to wrap their arms around you and help.  Even if its just  kick in the rear!

Good luck in your ongoing journey :)

I know what ya mean.......I was 300 at my biggest and I really didn't know I was so big.  I look back now and I have to fight each day to stay focused and it is really hard.  I do get off track and then fight to get back to where I need to be.  I hope all goes well with you darlin......hugs to you