Thoughts of death

I don't know why i keep thinking i am going to die. Is this just a thought that we have when we are about to have this surgery? I have been up the last couple of hours crying and praying that i make it through this so i can finish raising my kids.  Did anyone else have these thoughts? I started thinking what if my ex has to raise them will they be mistreated by him and his girlfriend? Am i normal? Am i just going through a phase? I sure hope so cause i love my babies and i want to be here for them. Thats the idea for doing this so i can get healthy and be around as long as possible. I hope i am just afraid. Pray for me.

{{{Hugs}}}  Yes, what you're experiencing is normal.  This surgery is a big, life-changing event; so it's normal for it to bring on a whole range of emotions and thoughts.   Do you have your surgery date yet?  Traci

I think you are normal.  Most of us have thoughts like that and depending on our age our reaction may be a little different.  Jan and I both had the WIN-WIN idea, that if we died we'd be in heaven with Jesus and it would be wonderful and if we lived we'd have a new life in a new healthy body and that would be wonderful.  Just don't let your fears paralyze you.  Remember that if you are morbidly obese you are shortening your life considerably - my doctor says I've added 10-15 years to my life.  And after surgery you will be able to care for and play with your wonderful children as you never have before so you really are doing this for them so be brave and go for it.  It's worth working through your fears. Hugs and come back and share any time you are frightened.  We are here for you. Lana

thanks i have been praying so much my knees are chaffed. lol but its ok i feel better about it. i know i am in GODs hands all the way!

Hey Jonada1,     I don't know if your a Christian or not,but if you are or even if you aren't ,remember Satan doesn't want us to do anything that's gonna be good for us and he usually hits us where it hurts.For you and most of us it's our kids.And of course it's normal to be scared and think of death before surgery.I'm gonna pray for some comfort and peace for you and everythings gonna be OK.I have the faith!                                                    Connie

Thanks Connie for the prayers. did you get a date yet. Yes i am a christian and the devil is a liar. I have been praying and after i said my thoughts and prayers and left them at the alter i felt a whole lot better. God is good!

I have always had such feelings before any major proceedure of which I was going to be knocked out for...back surger when my children were very young. I got my affairs in order...I left nothing to chance and to my Hubby and mother I talked about what should be done if the worst happened...Know in my head things would be fine but I needed to do everything I could to make sure the kids would be fine....when I had done all that I could to make sure all would be well if I wasnt. I put my faith in God that he knew what was best for me. and my family.    remember if you are stressed before surgery of anykind it han hinder the recoup! your feelings are soo normal. so dont let that be one of your worries! Hang in there! nutti