Oh my breaking heart, aching joints and tired body!!!

As I sit here making the blanket that will swaddle my darling grandchild, I have a very heavy heart and an extreme craving for comfort food. I have hardly eaten the last few days because everything seems to taste like cardboard and sticks in my throat. Except the forbidden things don't. I am just to busy to cook and can't think of what to eat except chocolate or cookies etc. I have been making funeral arrangements and helping with my grandchildren. Today we went shopping for clothes and shoes the children need for the funeral not to mention the things my dd needs. This is just overwhelming. My daughter is a strong woman but can't seem to make a decision so I have pretty well taken over most things. She will be induced on Monday. The funeral will tentatively be on Wed. In the meantime, she is alternately manic and devastated. I am trying to help and be strong but I am getting pretty tired not to mention extremely emotional as I went through something similar and the memories are crushing. Sigh... Who said "That which doesn't kill us will make us stronger."? I am going to be steel soon! I am just so tired and achy! Can't take any pain meds cause I am driving etc. Plus one of the children is Autistic and I am the only one who can tend him. (Besides his parents) The only other occasional person is out of town. He senses something is wrong and is extremely clingy. Also, her husband is having a work crisis and is stressed to the max over that. Oh yes, speaking of his work, another thing that is worrying me. My sil works for a fellow in our ward. His wife, Rebecca and my Erin are very good friends. Erin and Rebecca are both scheduled to enter the same hospital 6 AM Monday morning to be induced. The difference is that Rebecca will be taking her precious bundle home. Erin is happy for Rebecca but I know that she will still find the situation difficult. Her emotions will, most likely, override her rational thoughts on the subject. Not that she would wish anything bad on her friend, just that it will magnify her empty arms. Well, if you stayed with me through this epistle, thank you. I need to get back to my sewing. I just needed to chat a minute. Thanks for being here. Kaye

Kaye my prayers and love goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry you are having to go thru this. Being strong some times is really hard, when you yourself have that pain so fre****ched in your heart. Know that you are loved and we are praying for you, and as hard as it is we survive..( sometimes I wonder how?) I also wondered who came up with that saying "That which doesn't kill us will make us stronger." Stay strong my friend. Kaye

I am so sorry for all you are going thru. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers. Make sure your daughter get's a blessing...she will need it. Maybe you should get one too! Tammy

Your family is in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. Shannon

My thought and prayers are with you and your family. Just remember - we may not know the reason why this happened, but is all part of a greater plan. Please, take care of yourself though these hard days ahead. Margaret

Dearest Sister Kaye,,,my heart goes out to you and your family. I'm sorry that I haven't been posting. Been on vacation and my work schedule changes from day to day lately. But I do think of you all often. I hope your family will feel the peace that Heavenly Father is sending you at this time I can only imagaine what you are all going through. Hugs to you Alfie

Kaye, you have the power and authority to call on and ask our Heavenly Father to send you the ministering angels to comfort you and help you through this. This is a gift from our Father that we don't utilize often enough. It sounds like you as well as your family need some extra comfort right now. The gift of the ministering angels are there for us to call on and use. Ask the Father. He will send you comfort. Hugs - Melody