It's in His hands/Need Prayers and Testimonies

Thanks to all *****ad and replied to my post. I have been feeling more peaceful about it the last 2 days. I have decided that I will put it into Heavenly Father's hands. When the time is right, I will pursue a revision. But right now I guess I'm content to know that the option maybe available at a later date. It doesn't help that we are really starting to go inactive. I hate going to church on Sundays. It seems such a hassle getting all 4 boys ready first thing in the morning when all I want to do is just RELAX. We are in a new ward and I love it but I'm just being lazy. I want to be active....I just need motivation. Would you all do me a favor? Would you all include me and my family in your prayers. And also if you don't mind - would you please share your testimony with me. I will share what little I have. I do know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ lives. I know that Joseph Smith was a prophet of God. I know that we are literally children of God. I also know that whenever I do go to church, I feel the peace and security that Heavenly Father offers to us. Thanks for listening. Tammy

Tamara, I just said a prayer for you. I, too, know how difficult it is to get ready for church. I have a teenager who can never be ready on time and complains the entire time she is getting ready. I am the unofficial parent that deals with getting the children ready. Then there are the times when after having dressed my 6-year-old son and getting myself ready, I find my son outside playing with the dog. There are days that I cry on the way because of the emotional garbage that went on before we could leave for church. After arriving at church, hearing the speakers, and listening to the lessons, I leave there feeling grateful and glad I went. It changes my entire family's mood to a positive one. The rest of the day feels like cake (angel food cake). LOL I read your previous post about wanting a revision. Is your insurance denying you? I had to fight for my surgery, but in the end, I won. I know the DS is a great WLS, but I know the DS is an expensive surgery, so self-pay may not be an option for you. I have a couple of friends who self-paid for the DS and they are doing great. I had the VSG which is the restrictive part of the DS. It's my daughter's birthday party today, but as soon as I can, I will send you my testimony. Remember YOU are the daughter of a KING. You were born to be a QUEEN. "I Am a Child of Royal Birth" "I am a child of royal birth. My Father is King of heaven and earth. My spirit was born in the courts on high. A child beloved, a princess (or prince) am I." -Anna Johnson Tina

Tammy, as I have been contemplated what to say to you I feel impressed to share my feelings with you. Just like in exercising, we can have no gain without going through the pain. I believe the same is true with out faith. We cannot have a gaining of our faith without going through the pain of the challenges and trials. Just like in exercising, we don't have to "like" it but it is necessary if we want any gain. We don't have to "like" the challenges we are going through but they are necessary if we are to stretch our faith and grow spiritually. I have a true testimony of this. When I was in school, if we did poorly on a test, we had to redo the test. I liken that to my earthly tests, if I do poorly on the tests or trials I am given, I just might have to redo them until I learn the lesson I was meant to learn from them. I don't like the trials and challenges the first time I have to go through them so I do my very best to try to learn what I need to learn from them so I won't have to go them again. Am I always sucessfull? NO. But that doesn't mean I stop trying. Life is hard. Satan likes to whisper little doubts in my ears and make me think I'm not worth anything. But I KNOW better. I AM worth something. I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father. I heard a speaker at a recent Relief Society function that I've really taken to heart. It was from a member of our Stake Presidency. He said that we try really hard not of offend Satan. We may stay home from church one week because of the hassle and problems with my children. Hey, we didn't offend Satan by doing that. We DO offend Statan when we pull up our boot straps, attend our meetings even though it's hard to get there. We try not to offend Satan by NOT bearing our testimony on Fast Sunday. We DO offend Satan every time we bear our testimony. We do NOT offend Satan everytime we allow something to get in the way of having a FHE, family scripture reading or family prayer. We offend him everytime we do those things. From his talk I try to offend Satan as often as I can. Whether it's attending the temple, having personal scripture reading, personal prayer, family time etc... Tammy, I have a true and real testimony that the trials and challenges we face in this life are for our growth and learning. I have a true testimony that Satan wants nothing better than for us to fail, our Heavenly Father wants nothing more than for us to return and live with him again. I leave these thoughts with you in the name of my beloved Savior, Jesus Christ, Amen. Melody