My thoughts (probably just hormonal rambling)

Hi friends, I posted this on the post op pregnancy board and I thought maybe I'd bring it over here and share it with all of you. It's LOOOOOOOONG, so go pee and get a snack before you start reading! So Sarah fell asleep on the couch really early tonight. At about 11:00 pm I was about to get her and put her in bed when she woke up on her own. She was fine for a minue, then she was just on a rampage.. She wanted her cup, but she didn't want her cup. She got on the couch, then off, then stumbled around the room just screaming and crying. She stumbled over Noahs shoes a few times, but wouldn't let me move them and wouldn't go around them. Finally, I just sat there helplessly watching my sweet baby have a TERRIBLE time. I knew that if she would just let me help her, just listen to the sound of my voice and let it soothe her, she would be okay. After all, aren't I her MOM? Don't I know what's best for her? I suddenly felt slapped in the face when I realized that this has to be (a fraction of) how God feels as He watches us stumble around making our mistakes. If only we'd let Him help us in the way that He know's is best. If only we'd stop and listen, we would be okay. We wouldn't struggle so hard and wouldn't have those scarey "out of control" times. God must feel awful when we ignore him; when we ignore what's right. Today there was an example of one of Gods Children turning their back on Him, and as a result destroying and altering the lives of so many others of Gods children. I wonder how long that one child stumbled around in darkness? Was this the result of many years of ignoring God, maybe just a little bit at a time. Was it just something that suddenly happened? How does someone do that? How do people do all of the awful things that happen a zillion times a day in this world? I don't think that most people are bad. I don't believe that every person that does something horrible is a horrible person. I think that people stop listening to God. I think that little by little they grow immune to the tugs at their heart. I think that people become blinded by their own pain and confusion and end up stumbling when they don't need to (Like my Sarah stumbling over Noahs shoes). I cried as I watched Sarah tonight. I wonder how much God cries. I know that many of you will find this silly;some of you may even be offended by it. I just couldn't get it off my mind, and I needed to babble. Now that I've written this, I'm going to try harder; I'm going to be a better listener so I can hear God telling me how to get around all the "shoes" in my life. Maybe if I really try, he'll even pick some of them up off of the floor for me. Have a good night. Thanks to whoever had the patience to read this silly novel. Daph

Daph, What a wonderful example. How great it is that you can liken a "simple?" situation in our lives to an eternal example. I think that our Heavenly Father is VERY proud of you for likening your experience to an eternal example. I think you are absolutely correct in your analogy. I also think that you should write this analogy down somewhere so when you are called upon to speak in Sacrament meeting, Stake Conference or General Conference you can use this example. Better yet, write this up and submit it to the Ensign. This is something that pertains to every single one of us. Thank you for sharing. Love Melody

Sweet Melody, you made me cry until I got to the "General Conference"part...then I laughed out loud. I think with all the "shoes" I trip over in my life, I can probably consider myself "safe" from being invited to speak there. I love the heck out of you!