Not pregnant anymore...mostly.

My sweet baby that I was carrying last week died. I was 13 weeks along that day. The hospital experience was humiliating and awful. I am still carrying my baby...we are waiting another week to see if I'll miscarry on my own. This is a nightmare. I went to enrichment tonight and of course, everyone was pregnant. I lasted about 20 minutes and had to leave. You can reply or not, but if you do, please don't try to "cheer me up" or tell me how it was "meant to be...yada yada yada". I know all of that. I know it's true, but I don't want ot hear any of it right now. a simple "wow that sucks" would mean a lot more than the whole "Families are forever" thing. Daph

Daph. I'm sorry. I haven't checked this board for the last two days. I was prompted to check it yesterday and I didn't follow the promptings. I've never lost a child so I can't say something like "I know what you are going through" because I don't. All I can say is I'm sorry. You will be in my prayers. Love, Melody

Daph, I'm so sorry. And I do understand, all too well. We lost 2 babies in the first trimester, then I had a healthy daughter (now 22) and then lost a baby girl when I was 32 weeks along. And yes, I had to carry the baby another wee****il I went into labor. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. She had major multiple birth defects. We named her Holly Celeste. Holly since she would have been born at Christmas and Celeste, well ... for celestial. At that time, I did not understand why. But I've had experiences since that have helped me to understand and I know these special spirits are depending on us to live our lives worthy enough to return and be an eternal family. Many of these experiences happened in the Temple. After that heart wrenching experience, I said no more fertility drugs. And a miracle occurred ... and she is now 17 years old. My ob-gyn was a bishop in a nearby ward and he was a great help in coping both physically and spiritually. I have a testimony that one day we will have a chance to raise the babies we did not get to know in mortality. I know that there is a reason Holly did not come to earth to live here. But she got a body and that was what she needed. I know she returned to teach others, including my family members who were either never baptized or due to disability never gained a testimony while here on earth. Again, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Right now I know no words can help more than a ((((((HUG))))) Laurie

THIS SUCKS PURPLE TWINKIES!!!! xoxox Tammy

That sucks and the fact that they are waiting to see if you miscarry on your own! What a horrible experience. I had to kinda chuckle at the everyone was pregnant comment since that's how it always feel. I am in a young ward now and we always have someone pregnant. It's a killer, I know.