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In order to be approved for WLS I had to go back to a therapist. Read my profile in regards to the psych eval and my thoughts on the quack that did it. Anyways, it was a good reccomendation and I am glad that I made that choice. I have struggled with depression, sometimes quite severe, ever since we adopted Corry. I also was pregnant so it is hard to say which was the trigger. In my heart of hearts I believe a bit of both. I started taking anti-depressants when Abigayle was 6 months old. To no avail I went off them. For the last 3 yrs I have went threw just about everyone on the market and then some. Finally mid spring found a combo that has worked well for me. I have had a few bouts but nothing long and drawn out like before. Since surgery (and the week or two prior) I have had a great deal of "memory" problems. I spoke w/Linda (therapist) today about it. Because it has/is becoming a problem. It is affecting my daily life, marriage, children and job. I just gave notice to my job today but that is another hole issue. I will be working somewhere else. Linda seems to think that it wasn't psychological (sp??) but more surgery related as your body tends to do different things when your intake and such is drastically reduced. She asked that I call my surgeon and go from there. So I called the program coordinator today. She calls back and says she feels it has everything to do w/my meds that I take for depression/mood and that I need to talk to the dr. that rx them - which is in the same office as Linda. She wants Kathy (psychiatrist) to call Dr. Sunby's assistant and discuss it with her. Her thoughts is the malabsorbtion is taking place and that something is going to need to change. YIKES!! This is the first med combo that has helped significantly in a long time. They dont' come in liquid form and so I have no clue what is next. Frustrating. I knew these things could happen. I know that this is minor (well puking to me is minor compared to depression) but regardless...and I can't imagine how people get threw having so many more problems than just this. I just wish that I could be "normal" for once!! You know just for one day. If I'm not doubled over in pain having a police officer hound me about whether I am okay or not, I can't remember what the prices are to the swim suits that I have been pricing for ever at work and know by heart, my 10 yr old is threatening to kill another child 3 yrs younger than him and hurts the treatment homes cat, it is something else. Anyways, this got much longer and in depth than I really wanted it to... If you got this far thanks for listening. Gala

Oh, honey! My heart goes out to you!!! I do hope they can come up with the proper dosage for you. This is NOT a minor thing. It will affect your and your family's lives. You have alot on your plate and need to cut yourself some slack. I do hope you can start to remember things. My prayers are with you. As for that job, I would just love to price bathing suits. I might be able to find one! lol. They are all gone around here. It seems that stores here would stock them more here where you swim 10 months of the year! Here it is August and the stores are stocked with sweaters and wool things that we won't wear until Nov or Dec! Sheesh! Oh well, lol As far as the police issue, at least he was concerned. I know it was embarrassing and annoying but these days, it is hard to find someone that cares. Take care kiddo and please be kind and gentle to my friend, Gala. OK? Grins, Kaye

Dear Gala I just wish I could wave that magical wand for you. I can't even imagine all you have and are still going through. My hubby and I didn't have children but he has three from his first marriage and the middle daughter has a lot of mental problems that we have tried to help her with over the years. I can only imagine having little ones as you do and one that needs extra care plus what you are going through yourself. Getting doctors offices to talk to each other is quite the challenge too. I hope you have the chance daily for a few moments to yourself to just take a deep breath. Sometimes when the weight of too much "stuff" gets to me I hide in the bathtub...I get some bubble bath..a candle and I just soak. Seems to help for a little while. I hope your medicine issue is solved quickly and that whatever is making you get so sick is taken care of soon too. I get the frothies sometimes but so far haven't had any major issues. Just keep fighting with myself over grazing to much. Take care dear friend and I'm sending the biggest hug I can your way. Hope you have a better day today!! Alfie

Gala, you really have your plate full. The only thing I can say is I'm glad that Heavenly Father loves you a whole lot more than he loves me because he's working so hard to give you challenges to gain perfection. (ha ha) We all have our own share of problems. My life is certainly not easy and is filled with challenges but I'm glad they're MY challenges and not someone elses. I can handle my own challenges. I'm not sure I'd be able to handle yours. I wish that I lived closer so I could be your friend and help you out. I also wish that DH was a little more supportive with your problems. Sending you a big hug your way. (((((((((((((HHHHHHHHHHUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGG)))))))))) Melody

Hi Gala, I'm Billie and I'm pretty new here, but I wanted to comment on your post if that is ok. I read your profile and I am amazed at how you handle the things that trouble your life. Just keeping up with Corry in the situation he is in is an amazing thing. That one event alone is enough to cause stress, depression, etc. Let alone the fact that you have two other kids and a job and on and on!!! You are really an amazing person! With that said, don't loose hope. You only have good things ahead because you have taken steps to improve your health! I am jealous that your surgery is over and you are started down that road! As I read about your depression (which I am very familiar with!!!) I wondered if you have had a blessing? I don't know if this is something you have thought of or if you have someone around that can do that for you, but I know that it is the first thing I thought when I read about your problems with the medications. Medication is really a miracle for those of us who need it and I'm sure there is a reason you have had trouble finding the right thing for you. I just wanted to put that out there to see if it is something you have tried. I hope things will look up for you and I know they will because you are becoming more healthy in body and that will promote stronger mental health. My DH keeps telling me it won't (he doesn't want me to have the surgery), but I am convinced it will! Keep up the good work! Billie

Thanks Billie for your sweet and kind encouragement. I have had a blessing or two. Not recently but in the past. The meds that I am on now have done really good up until the last few weeks. Only this time it is a "different" type of depression and things that are happening vs before. I have an appt this coming Thursday w/the dr. that rx those meds. I am having some problems with eating right now. I got an email from the Assistant that works w/my surgeon and she would like for me to come in for her first opening which isn't till the 8th. She said if I think I should be seen sooner than to call her Monday and have her paged. Which I might just do. Corry is another hole issue -- I am trying REALLY hard to keep that out of my mind right now. We have had him 6 yrs this coming Tuesday and that day is always hard. Anyways, thanks a bundle. Love, Gala