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Woke up to a yucky snow today. We haven't had snow in quite awhile. Last weekend it hit 50 degrees and now it is barely 20 degrees. I'm having a Party Lite Party tonight. I wasn't to interested in having one. Since I haven't had real good luck in the past at parties. But will give it a try. The gal is a new consultant and needed to get started. So I said I would help her out. I used to sell Tupperware and I know how hard it is to get started. I'm doing better than I was on Mon-Tues. It helps/helped having daycare kids to distract my mind. We are going threw some more trying times w/our son. The agency that is supporting him in the foster home has failed to tell us that the police were called and he has had some aggressive incidents. I as his guardian really feel that it is imparative that I be told of these things. They feel otherwise I guess. Anyway, it is just frustrating. We were under the understanding he was doing rather well. They said at the meeting "well he is". My comment was bull crap! calling the police in my book does not constitute for a child who is doing "well". I'm not sure where to turn or who to "complain" to with in the organization since they all sat there acting like I was over re-acting. Jerks! ANyway, in the midst of that I realized that the same thing that got me to the place of having to have WLS -- isn't yet resolved. My "crutch" so to speak is still laying dormant. And under all the stress, heart ache and pure frustration I did/wanted to turn to food. The good thing about this is that when I am stressed I get sick. And I am able to see that. However, it is frustrating. Because in even the most needed situations to eat - I get sick. So it has been a week of being sick alot. Tons of pain in my pouch. Yesterday was better and I know already today it is going to be better. I just had 2 very small bowls of raisin bran and didn't get sick or have pain. I had one small bowl and then shortly after that thought would try little bit more. Melody Hope all went well w/your taxes yesterday. I know it is/can be very dreaded!!

Im about to go down to the high school for yet another meeting about my 15 year old daughter's behaviors -ugh. the good thing about having spring break next week is she will be away from her bad influence friends for a week. The bad thing is being stuck with her all week - gulp! I found a sliding scale boarding school I am thinking of sending her to - it seems so drastic but if her behaviors keep up it just might save her life. I am going to fast and pray about it on Sunday. -Sherrie

It seems like the heartache never ends. In reading the posts from others like yourself, Sherrie, Jonathan and others it helps to know I'm not the only going through major challenges and heartaches. Most of you know that we lost our job on January 1st. We have held the county contract to supply ambulance coverage for our county for over 18 years. We were blindsided when for no reason our contract was suddenly terminated on January 1st without any explanation. Since we have made it known that we are still planning on responding to ambulance calls, our county promptly that same day passed a "flow control" ordinance forbidding us to respond to any ambulance call which didn't specifically request us by name. They have even refused us use of the 911 phone dispatch. If we don't abide by the flow control ordinance than we face up to 6 months in jail as well as a $300 fine per incident. The county commissioners wouldn't give us a reason for the termination. The newspaper got wind of it and I learned more from reading the newspaper article than I ever learned from the commissioners. The commissioners claim they met together about the ambulance 8-10 times in the past year. We were never advised of any of these meetings. Today in a general conversation with someone who was running for county commissioner and lost the election, my husband was told that our full time employee approached this commissioner elect last May and tried to talk him into changing the ambulance service and putting him in charge of it. This has confirmed something we have suspected, our supposedly "loyal" employee has been stabbing us in the back. HE has known about all these commissioner meetings and has even initiated them and hasn't told us about any of them. He has absolutely stabbed us in the back. The commissioners are very enamered(sp) with this man and think he can do no wrong. The commissioners won't even speak to us anymore about anything. I know it's wrong to hate. I know that we are commanded to forgive everyone and to pray for our enemies. This is a hard concept. I'm trying very hard to forgive. I include this man and well as the commissioners in my prayers each morning and evening. I guess I'm a hypocrite because in one breath I pray for the softening of their hearts and then after my prayers are over I wish that they would crash and burn. I'll still have to work on that principle of forgiveness. I'm sure I'm undoing all the good that I'm doing in my prayers. Thanks for letting me vent. (At least I'm keeping my mouth and thoughts clean - at least for now) Melody

Wow Melody, that would really chap my hide too. I tend to trust co-workers too much and it's bit me several times. You didn't mention if he's a church member. One lesson I've learned in the years is that I don't trust someone MORE because they are church members. Many dishonest people are still dishonest after baptism and I keep that in mind in all areas of my life now. Church is for EVERYONE, not just the perfect. I used to work in a mental health hospital and one of our patients was a church member who kidnapped a 4 year old from the church parking lot. I never let my kids run unsupervised at church, for that very reason. Nor would I let women I didn't know take my twin babies from my arms. I figured just cause they are in this building (church) doesn't mean they are someone I can trust my babies with. And no, I'm not a cynical person, I just see alot of the real world in my work as a nurse. My day today is cleaning house. It's my main flaw in life, is I'm a terrible housekeeper. I work full time and my kids are total pigs.....drop everything and never put away anything type of kids. Everyone in my family, hubby too, has ADD and so we are a cluttered, messy gang. It is so embarrassing, because I would love a nice tidy home, but I just can't pull it off. We live in a tiny mobile home with no closets or storage, so that's part of the problem....no place to put anything. We are in the process of building a new home and I can't wait to have closets and room to house us. Tracey