A devastating moment

A devastating moment is not the word for it. The description would be better termed "a devasting time yet to come". Last night I learned that both by 4 year old and my 6 year old daughters have been repeatedly raped by their 15 year old cousin. This has been going on for a year now from what we can piece together. I use the word "rape" instead of just molested because there has been intercourse both vaginally and rectally on both girls. When I learned about this last night I was brave and strong. Today through church, the tears started with the opening song and flowed throughout the entire meeting. The sacrament was especially tearful for me as I thought of the Savior and all that he went through and all that he has done for us. Tomorrow morning (Monday) we start the process of contacting child protective services and pressing charges. The perpetrator is a family member (aren't they all) and this will tear the family apart. My sister is an alcoholic and her son is the perpetrator. This 15 year old has sooo many problems. He really needs the help. We are definately pressing charges and maybe there will be a blessing in it for him. Maybe this will force him AND his mother to get the treatments they need. Had to vent. Thanks for listening. Melody (notice no smile this time)

My dear Melody..My heart aches for you and your precious girls. I really don't know what to say but had to write something so you would know I am thinking about you. I can't even in my worse nightmares imagine what you are going through. I don't have children ,,I have three stepchildren all grown and gone. I hope that all will go well for you and I hope the girls will be ok too. God bless and keep you all love Alfie

Thank you Alfie. Never in my whole life would I thought something like this was possible. I THOUGHT I watched and protected my children, little did I know. I've just returned from the police station where an official report was made. The officer thought it could be as soon as two weeks from now before things were ready to go to the prosecutor and within a couple days before the girls were interviewed and examined by the professionals. The sooner the healing for the girls the better. Thanks for the moral support. I really need it right now. I cried all through church Sunday beginning with the opening song. The words of the song were "I need thee every hour, now bless me now my Savior I come unto thee." It's a familiar song at least in this area and the words just hit a spot in me and the tears started flowing and didn't stop. I can just imagine what the people sitting near me thought. At one point I was even sobbing. I have my moments now. It feels like the whole world is collapsing. It all began when we lost our job and as of this moment we still don't have an income, now this. In my prayers I ask Heavenly Father to please help me learn what eternal lesson I'm supposed to learn from all of this. I need to open my mind to be receptive to the lesson I'm to learn so this will pass and pass quickly. I'm a firm believer that we're all here on the earth to be tested and learn and to grow and become more like our Heavenly Father. I just haven't learned yet what the eternal concept is I'm supposed to learn in all of this. Thanks for your support. Melody

Hi Melody I know you are doing everything you possibly can to go through this with Heavenly Fathers help. I can't help but in my minds eye see Him with tears in his for what has happened. It constantly amazes me how one persons actions can effect so many people for good or in this case definetly for bad. I wish I could be there just to give you a hug. Your journey on this road has just begun and I wish I knew how to help. You are in my prayers. I have read the other post to you and I'm just heart sick at how many are molested. What a terrible thing to deal with as the victim and also the parent of someone who has been so terribly attacked. I will keep you in my prayers and your little ones as well..and DH too. take care and keep in touch please love ya Alfie