Woke up to a yucky snow today. We haven't had snow in quite awhile. Last weekend it hit 50 degrees and now it is barely 20 degrees. I'm having a Party Lite Party tonight. I wasn't to interested in having one. Since I haven't had real good luck in the past at parties. But will give it a try. The gal is a new consultant and needed to get started. So I said I would help her out. I used to sell Tupperware and I know how hard it is to get started. I'm doing better than I was on Mon-Tues. It helps/helped having daycare kids to distract my mind. We are going threw some more trying times w/our son. The agency that is supporting him in the foster home has failed to tell us that the police were called and he has had some aggressive incidents. I as his guardian really feel that it is imparative that I be told of these things. They feel otherwise I guess. Anyway, it is just frustrating. We were under the understanding he was doing rather well. They said at the meeting "well he is". My comment was bull crap! calling the police in my book does not constitute for a child who is doing "well". I'm not sure where to turn or who to "complain" to with in the organization since they all sat there acting like I was over re-acting. Jerks! ANyway, in the midst of that I realized that the same thing that got me to the place of having to have WLS -- isn't yet resolved. My "crutch" so to speak is still laying dormant. And under all the stress, heart ache and pure frustration I did/wanted to turn to food. The good thing about this is that when I am stressed I get sick. And I am able to see that. However, it is frustrating. Because in even the most needed situations to eat - I get sick. So it has been a week of being sick alot. Tons of pain in my pouch. Yesterday was better and I know already today it is going to be better. I just had 2 very small bowls of raisin bran and didn't get sick or have pain. I had one small bowl and then shortly after that thought would try little bit more. Melody Hope all went well w/your taxes yesterday. I know it is/can be very dreaded!!

Great Job Melody. Thanks for posting today. It has been not so good one for me. I will try to write more tomorrow. Gala

Congradulations on your 1 yr ann. I am starting on my 3 yr ann. I have lost 149 pounds and I am currently looking into PS. I had been denied from my insurance but I have appealed that am I am in the waiting stage. I hate this waiting stage. I a currently recovering from ACL surgery and have been laid-up now for 4 weeks. I am about to go out of my mind. I have been working on the book that I am writing and its going slowly as I desire to write with deep conviction and testimony. I have recently been re-baptised into the church so I am writing about not being a member and the journey one takes in being re-baptised into the gospel. This has been a very emotional journey with lots of trials and tribulations. I desire to help the members of the church to gain a greatier understanding of what an individual goes through and feels during church discipline. I am not looking for sympathy or anything like that from anyone here on this board just wanted to share a little bit of my history. I have grown in so many areas in the past 2 yrs of my life and my eyes have been opened to many new things. Well anyway I hope everyone is doing well and once again congradulations, always, Kathy Sparrow

Daph, I am so sorry you are going through this. I have been there, although not pregnant. I miscarried just before I left. It was the straw that broke the camel's back for my husbands depression and my sanity. You have done the right things to stay on track. Stay prayerful and close to your bishop. It will be good to be close to your family and support. I found that my ward family was very supportive also. As Melody said keep coming here so we can give you support also. Jane

I can relate to your delimma and I have to concurr with what the other sisters have stated. This is not going to be an easy road to travel, but, having been divorced myself, I can tell you that this is going to be the most trying time in your life. Especially with your pregnancy and having a little one. Keep on your knees, and always have a prayer in your heart. Consult with priesthood leaders often and by all means, get a priesthood blessing to get through this time. Remember, we are here to help you if you need it. Donna