Daph, I'm so sorry. And I do understand, all too well. We lost 2 babies in the first trimester, then I had a healthy daughter (now 22) and then lost a baby girl when I was 32 weeks along. And yes, I had to carry the baby another wee****il I went into labor. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. She had major multiple birth defects. We named her Holly Celeste. Holly since she would have been born at Christmas and Celeste, well ... for celestial. At that time, I did not understand why. But I've had experiences since that have helped me to understand and I know these special spirits are depending on us to live our lives worthy enough to return and be an eternal family. Many of these experiences happened in the Temple. After that heart wrenching experience, I said no more fertility drugs. And a miracle occurred ... and she is now 17 years old. My ob-gyn was a bishop in a nearby ward and he was a great help in coping both physically and spiritually. I have a testimony that one day we will have a chance to raise the babies we did not get to know in mortality. I know that there is a reason Holly did not come to earth to live here. But she got a body and that was what she needed. I know she returned to teach others, including my family members who were either never baptized or due to disability never gained a testimony while here on earth. Again, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Right now I know no words can help more than a ((((((HUG))))) Laurie

Daph. I'm sorry. I haven't checked this board for the last two days. I was prompted to check it yesterday and I didn't follow the promptings. I've never lost a child so I can't say something like "I know what you are going through" because I don't. All I can say is I'm sorry. You will be in my prayers. Love, Melody

My sweet baby that I was carrying last week died. I was 13 weeks along that day. The hospital experience was humiliating and awful. I am still carrying my baby...we are waiting another week to see if I'll miscarry on my own. This is a nightmare. I went to enrichment tonight and of course, everyone was pregnant. I lasted about 20 minutes and had to leave. You can reply or not, but if you do, please don't try to "cheer me up" or tell me how it was "meant to be...yada yada yada". I know all of that. I know it's true, but I don't want ot hear any of it right now. a simple "wow that sucks" would mean a lot more than the whole "Families are forever" thing. Daph

I'm here...not as much as I should be, but I check it every so often. Lots happening with me. My son came home from his mission mid March. We had a new grand daughter born in March. It was a great month. My mom came down from Idaho and spent the month with us enjoying all the activities. She left the day after Easter to go home...April 9th. She got home the 10th and then had a massive heart attach and died. The police found her the next day after I had made so many calls to see if she got home okay. We called the PD and they went to her home. We had her funeral last weekend and I'm still shell shocked. She was the best mom and we are all going to miss her so much. I'm struggling with little things like walking by the bedroom she slept in here at my house and seeing it set up exactly as she left it. I picture her sitting there and reading which she loved. I had to take her brand new walker back to Walmart and return it. That was so hard. I've been reading her history/journal and missing her. I know time will help but it will never be the same without my mother friend to talk to about so many things. Christy

Sweet Melody, you made me cry until I got to the "General Conference"part...then I laughed out loud. I think with all the "shoes" I trip over in my life, I can probably consider myself "safe" from being invited to speak there. I love the heck out of you!