This is a question that I probably needed answered. My lungs are full. (NO AIR) but when I drink (I am on clear liquids) I seem to inhale the water or liquid. I have had very little today. Ice ships, apple juice chips and about 1/4 C Soup. All that I burped on for ever. I am actually kind of afraid to eat. I know that when I burp this stuff it is in my air ways because it is so full in there. What do I do? I am not hungry but I will get deydrated soon. Any one out there know anything aabout this? Barbara Vancouver, WA

I am so glad you made it home. Thanks for your input on my earlier post. I'm trying to deal positivly about things. I will be making an update post about it later. In the meantime, take care of yourself and get some R&R. Tammy

I read with great interest your last post about your Bishop. How terrible for you! There are lots of things I could say to you right now but remember _____one thing_____. :not easy when you are hurt and mad: Sometimes men are called to high places because when they fall it makes a larger impact. It is not fun but sometimes you just have to take care of yoursel and watch and see what happenes. Hevenly Father loves us all we just have to learn our lessons in out own way. Barbara Hansen PS Thanks for all of the prayers. I am home now being care for by my husband and the Relief Society.

Daph honey, it's ok to feel so angry right now. It's part of greiving. Just because we know what is happening doesn't make it all better. Right now everything else in your life is up in the air (new business, moving, new baby, Kyle, a 4 year old, ME!) that sometimes you can only take so much and then you have to shut down for your own protection. Nothing is going to make any sense right now while you are sleep deprived, depressed, and grieving. Chris needs to grieve on her own and right now you can't take care of her if you are not taking care of yourself. In your heart of hearts you know I am right. You can only take this one day at a time. Sometimes you have to say "Hey, for the next hour I'm not going to think about it but after that I give myself permission to cry/rant/rave for 30 minutes. Then I will resume my life for another 2 hours." The best way to stop obsessing about something is to actually give yourself permission and a time frame to think about it without having to justify it to anyone. Give your grief to Heavenly Father for an hour or so. He will handle it with care. One other thing...you know that Nolan can see you and lets face it...do you really want him telling all his new spirit buddies about Wacky Daph? I mean really, they are suppose to be working hard up there and instead they are probably using you for reality tv entertainment and nothing is getting done up there. love ya!!!! Tammy

Daph, I dont know that I have any divine answers or words of comfort that will help. I can only imagine your pain and sorrow. The closest I've come to loosing a a loved one last was my Grandpa - 15 yrs ago. And more recently my adopted son - which is a hole different situation in itself. Get a blessing!! You need it. You know you need it. You Father in Heaven knows you need it. YOu need to take things one day at a time. One step at a time. Wrap yourself up with those around you that love you and support you Daph. ((((HUGS))) Love, Gala