REPOST From the Over 50 Forum. I'm a bit tired and worn down tonight. So I just copied this from the OFF Board. I know Melody you said you couldn't find Jeannie's posts. You have to go back a few pages. And even so she didn't really go into detail. Only bits and pieces. The posts from her started on the 6th I think. Anyway...this is somewhat of what I was in there for. Not much of an explanation. Just brief. I'm very weak physically and also emotionally. Love, Gala I'm home. Weak physically and emotionally. But home. The hard work starts from here. Feel a bit batter and bruised emotionally. As you may have read from Jeannie's updates and then what bit I said I was in there for Anorexia, severe depression, suicidal ideations (never had a 'plan' - just didn't want to live) and then left w/added dx of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). I can't say that anything is horrible better. But the one thing that came out of this is: A: My DH is just that..>Darling. I know our marriage will suffer. I know that it isn't all sugar and spice and everything nice. However, it was a hard wake up call for James to realize the depths of my depression - all along he had no frickin' clue. he just thought I was "moody" as always. When he recieved the call from my therapist he was very shocked to say the least. Some of the other things that have came out (to him at least) over the last 12 days has brought us closer. It could have torn our marriage even further apart. However, it didn't. He has shown me the depths of his love more than I could ever imagine. Just thinking about it makes me cry. He told me last night when we were laying in bed that he 'wants to be my best friend'. I believe he is sincere and hope and pray that we can move forward from this point. I'm doing okay. The not wanting live, this stinks, just want to go to sleep and not wake up feelings are still there. Especially when I'm very overwhelmed and the anxiety attacks come on. The incident w/me falling/passing out in the shower this morning was figured out. I took the wrong medication this morning. Thinking I was taking lexapro and I didn't. I ended up taking trazadone. Which makes me lightheaded and usually fall asleep right away. I then went and took a very warm shower which added to the affects. I didn't realize this till the dr. at the hospital looked over the meds I took back and we saw that I took the wrong ones. The bottles were labeled with their generic names and so that screwed me up. So from here it is moving forward. I've been given 2 books to look into. One is on PTSD and the other is a rape recovery handbook. I've done a few of the exercises from the 2nd book so I think I will start with trying to get that from the library. Thanks again for those who have called/emailed ect ect. You can not know how much it meant to me. The road is still long. I'm not sure that there is much of a light at the end. However, the light is a bit brighter today than it was 2 days ago....and even more so 12 days ago. Thanks and Love, Gala

Christy, An idea for an activity: have a candlelight dinner at one of the leaders homes where each girl is to dress as formal as she can. Use nice place settings, real linens, and water goblets. While eating dinner have some uplifting contemporary LDS music playng in the background. After dinner, adjourn to a living room that has been filled with fresh flowers, preferabley a vase for each girl. If at all possible, have the leaders wearing their temple dresses. Then have each leader take 15-20 minutes each to discuss the importance of knowing who we are and where we came from. Another leader could talk about how when we develope a close personal relationship with our Father in Heaven that it shows in the way we carry ourselves. We become more like him and treat others accordinly. Then the closing speaker could talk about each girl individually praising her strenghs and expressing a real unconditional love for her. I don't know who wrote this but here is a poem that you could share. I am a child of royal birth My father is king of heaven and earth My spirit was born on courts of high A child of God, a Princess am I. hope this gives you some ideas. Tammy

Goodness Gala, I had no idea that you were in the hospital. I wondered why you haven't been posting lately but life happens and we all get busy. Gala, I went to the Over 50 Forum to find out more about why you were in the hospital but other than seeing a post from saying that you said "hello" I couldn't find any post that would give me a clue as to what put you in the hospital. Gala I want you to know that you are in my prayers. It's hard to be away from your family for such a long time, especially a busy, working mother. I've missed you Gala and whatever landed you in the hospital, I hope they can get it undercontrol and you can go home to your family. Melody

I can't believe the day is almost here! Only two more days until I go under the knife. My emotions are all balled up into one...nervous, anxious, happy, scared, and nervous. The plans are made, bags almost packed, prescriptions filled, etc. Most importantly, I had a blessing at church last Sunday, so I am prepared. Thanks again for all of your kind emails! To those who have had LapBand surgery...I really do have lots of questions. I haven't had a lot of time to sit down lately to type them out, but I'm sure I will have plenty of time and questions post-op! I have faith that all will go according to plan and that Heavenly Father will be watching over this child of his. If you think about it on Fri. morning, say a quick prayer for your Sister?! Thanks!!! Ali

Wow, this has been a long ordeal for you and your daughters. I think besides forgiving the boy, you may consider it for his mother too. It will be easier for him to come around to true pentence now that he has admitted guilt. His pride has kept him from admitting it all this time, but now that he has, he will be more easily humbled and as he thinks about it, you may get an apology in the future. Christy