Totally bummed

So i went to the doctor today..I was still the same weight as what i was on Monday which is no big deal..i didnt gain!!! My blood pressure today was 136/100 So they are having me do lab next Thursday...and doing a EKG test.. Which just freaks me out..but i am trying not to worry or freak and on the inside i really am..i am just not in a good mood..within the past month a lot has gone on and i would like to say maybe thats why my BP is the way it is..but i dont know that for sure because it was high back in january.. So i dont know i'm just really bummed out right now and worried about things.

In January, I went to the doc for the first time in 5 YEARS! I was scared ****less to say the least. I was scared of the scale cuz I knew it wouldn't weigh me cuz I knew I was over 350#. I was scared of what he would say. I was scared of what he wouldn't say. I was scared of the unknown and scared of the known.  My BP was 160/100 or really close anyway. I was a nervous wreck. I was crying. I was depressed and contemplating WLS. He ran bloodwork, a chest xray and EKG. MY glucse came back at 116 and my EKG came back fast. I ended up having to have my BP checked 3 times a week and my glucose redone. The BP came down but not enough and he determined I was having migraines so he gave me a medication that is used for both. My glucose was down to 107 on the second go round so now I have to have it checked every 6 months especially since my dad was just diagnosed 2 weeks ago with diabetes. Well, that almost seemed to be the easy stuff. Since then I have lost 44# and went back for medication maintenance and to get a realease for exercise at the local gym. Well, I walked out with an order for a back xray, knee xray and pelvis ultrasound plus a month's worth of physical therapy that I HAVE to complete before he will even think about me joining a gym.  It's one thing after another it seems BUT I am going for his advise and expertise so I can make myself as healthy as possible. Yeah sometimes it is just plain scary but so far I have only felt better than I did.  I guess my opinion is: Yeah it's scary but you know you are doing the right thing and will be better in the end for having done it. If you are confident in your doctor then know he will do what is right  giving you less reason to worry.  In the meantimes, you are totally in my prayers! Beth

Thank you Beth!! I know i shouldnt worry cause he is doing what he should..but it just really freaks me out! And my problem is..that i stress about things all the time..i have decided to just take a deep breath and relax and worry when the time is needed..i dont want to get stressed..cause then i turn to food.. Congrats on your 44 lbs that you have lost!!! Thats excellent..

I understand your nervousness.  You will be in my thoughts while you have your labs and ekg.

Dude....I totally hear you on all of this....  I'm having BP probs too -- actually following up with the doc again this afternoon because earlier this week it was 146 over like 110 or something.  I swear that my asthma meds are not helping, as that is when all of this started -- but maybe my asthma and blood pressure started around the same time due to my weight.  Who knows?  I try to look at it like it can only go up from here -- meaning.....life....because we are working on getting ourselves healthier.  Being healthier may not get rid of all our problems, but it may certainly prevent further things from going wrong. Try to look at the positives and take the blood pressure problem as a push to do what you need to do for yourself...your health.  That is what I am trying to do -- hard....but trying!  hugs to you

Facing up to reality can be hard and of course, will release you to be all you can be. If the worst happens, you will do what you have to do.  Please try not to worry until it gets a name! Even then, just know you will do whatever it takes to live life to its fullest. You seriously do not have that much to be concerned about! Your doc is being ultra cautious.

I feel for you darling but if it is any consolation my DH is 6ft 1 and 160 lbs soaking wet and has just as high if not higher BP.  His can't be control by diet.....but the good news is yours possibly can.  I'm on the opposite side of the spectrum I'm usually too low  80's over 50's (and lower) and that is a curse in itself.....one of these days they are going to ship me down to the morgue with my still beating heart because they can't get a pulse! Stress, diet, weight, smoking (god I miss it), and genetics are major factors......but it can be controlled throught diet, excercise and crappy medication.....don't get too scared everything will be alright......sounds like you've already taken steps to get your life healthwise under control!